Zeestory; Oh baby.

Chapter 132: The Final Chapter

2010-05-26T10:13:00.005+01:00

Hey people! (if there is anymore of you out there)

As you can read from the title, I'm planning on closing this blog. I plan on opening a new blog some place else, so do not fret.

I've been using it for 3 years and that was during the time I have just joined EMPCI in Morocco and wanted to jolt down my experiences there. Now that I am back in Brunei, I don't want to mix it with this blog. It will still be in viewing however, so you guys can still read it up (eventhough it looks silly to look back again).

So yes,

THIS BLOG IS DEAD.

You may now exit this blog by your right. ;)

Chapter 131: MacBook Pro

2010-01-08T02:38:00.005Z

Goood morning everyone and a belated Happy New Year!

I've already started my new semester on the 4th. I've got 4 subjects: Internet Programming, Introduction to Computer Communication, Computer Systems, and Fundamentals of Information System & Multimedia. I'll be having 3 end tests. Should be heck of fun! I better stop procrastinating this year orz. Oh, we also got a new classmate from the new batch. I was sort of expecting a few more students, but I guess they're still in the holiday mood to join in early. Haha.

I was supposed to do my orientation this Wednesday, but was cancelled because the other new students haven't arrived yet. Yes, I have to do my orientation eventhough I've been in college for 6 months due to joining in late, lol.

Anyways, I should be able to blog more since now I own E-Speed in the house (Yay, no more stealing connection!) and finally a new and faster laptop: MacBook Proooo! I just got it on the 6th. I went all "Eeeeee!!" when I saw it sitting there on the table.

I'm not an Apple user, so this is actually the first product from Apple I've gotten. It seriously did not take long to get used to the functions. I'm loving the Trackpad. You can zoom in on pictures and web browsers and rotate as if you're using the iTouch/iPhone. I think I could also use it as a tablet as well, but I think I need a stylus or whatev, so I might reconsider buying a tablet. Not sure yet. MSN on Mac sucks though; keeps on changing my nickname to the default although changing it like, 5 times. Gurrrr. I think I may need to find another program which would work swell for it. Speaking of programs, I still need to download Adobe programs such as Photoshop, Flash, and the likes. I also need to download stuff for college, so uhm, yeah.

Note to self: 2 days left. c:

Chapter 130: 2009 Is Ending

2009-12-30T11:08:00.004Z

Hello my (dead) readers!

I know, I know, it's been a very long time since I last updated. I have been busy with life to update you on anything at all. I've been mostly active on MSN and Facebook because all I do is chat and upload or check photos on Facebook. Yeaaah. Fun stuff!

Cool fact: I've just got back from Kota Kinabalu with Mawa and Kaka Ya. It was a total rush since we arrived there yesterday (Sol's and Uncle Tony's birthday. Woo!) around 6PM and left today around 4PM. I didn't have much to shop which kind of sucks. Meeeh.

I think this entry will just be a summary of what I did this year.

Turned 18 this year. ...I still don't feel 18.
Took painting classes.
Returned to Brunei for good around late July.
Started going to IGS at 2nd of August and taking HND in Computering. I am the only girl and the youngest in my class. Yeaaap.
Came across problems with classmates' gfs.
Nini Bini (Al-Fatihah) passed away on the 30th of September.
Nini's place is my second home.
Performed during Malam Mesra in a band as a keyboardist with Shamsul, Azmi, Danial, and Big Jo!
Received 4 love confessions ever since I arrived; that's pretty nuts if you ask me.
Not single. For the first time I feel like I'm in a proper relationship.
Helped out at the booth for the French Alliance and won a lucky draw prize!
Attended Devmeet for the first time. I became one of the MCs. Cosplayed as Ulala from Space Channel 5. Woo!
Got E-speed! Yaaay! No more stealing internets-
Went to KK for the first time ever.

Well, my hopes for next year are:

To keep a petty cash book.
To budget my money properly.
To not procrastinate. Much.
To maintain a good relationship.
To aim for really good marks.
To take time to draw at least 5 minutes per day.
To clean my room.
To stay fit.

I'm probably asking for too much, but it is better to set a goal than none at all. Vrai?

Anyways, I won't be updating the blog until next year, so Happy New Year and best of luck to everyone to the upcoming year!

Bye!

Chapter 129: Her Journey Ends

2009-10-06T15:09:00.003Z

My grandmother, Hjh Fatimah bte Hj Mat, passed away exactly a week ago on the 30th of September, 2009, at 10.30PM in the SICU, RIPAS. Al-Fatihah.

Sigh, the family and I broke down so many times. It was very tough, especially for my grandfather. He's still hurting, for sure. She suffered a lot during the whole month, so I am glad she can rest in peace now. We have a feeling she knew it was her time though. 40 days man. Exactly 40 days.

This is my first time experiencing this; losing her on the spot, going through the ceremony, being there when she was buried. Everything. The day she passed away, I couldn't even be in the same room as her. It was too much to bear. Now, I can't even go to the area in my house where she was "cleansed." This may take a while to adjust. I wonder if it'll be tough entering the house di Muara now.

I recall memories like sleeping in my grandparent's room when I was a kid, waiting for her when everyone else has walked too far, her being in the garden, her owning the guest room which we call "Nini's Room", her sleeping in my room when I was living in London, and etc. It's going to be very different now.

Ah.. man, I haven't cried for 5 days and I just did the water works after typing that.

But you know, Nini passing away actually brought the family quite close again. It feels like old times; like "family". I hope it's not for the moment; I wish it will be like this as long as we're all still standing here.

If you guys could be a darl', please pray for her. It would mean the world to me. *smiles*

Laters.

Chapter 128: The Huge Operation

2009-08-26T00:16:00.004Z

Hey guys, I'm currently in the hospital, RIPAS, at the moment.

The reason why I'm here is because I'm waiting until my grandmother's operation is done and hope it's a success. I'm sure it will considering how determine my grandmother is.

I've only discovered yesterday that the tumour she has near her I-forgot-what-the-other-internal-organ-is-called is actually malign. In case you didn't know, it means the tumour is cancerous.

Diagram done by one of the doctors. Sorry for the bad quality; taken by phone camera.

I can't really explain it that well since I'm made of fail when explaining these sort of things, but all the lines you see across some organs are actually going to be cut and operated on, or so I've been told.

Anyways, I'm not sure if my grandmother knows the "lump" is actually cancer. I really wish she'll recover as soon as the operation is done.

I'll be staying almost the whole day in the hospital. Please pray for her.

Also, happy starving and dehydrating for a month, guys!

Chapter 127: BRIDEX

2009-08-15T10:33:00.003+01:00

I've got so much to tell you guys, but I just haven't gotten to time to sit and type it out or didn't have the mood to blog.

School has been pretty swell. First few days were lonely, but when I was put into the Drama Club, I made quite a few friends. I've also gotten used to my classmates who are all boys. Oh, and my guess what correct; I am the youngest in the class yet again. Go me!

With Kaka Putih's wedding going on, we've been going to Bukit almost every night. Karaoking, Bingo, poco-poco all night long. Honestly, poco-poco is so.. 2 years ago. Why the hell is it making a come-back? Plus, it's not meant to be practiced, it's supposed to be for good fun. Anyways, with this whole thing going on, it has made me sleep-deprived and hard to eat the next day, haha. Well, what can you do? I'm glad I get to experience this though, since I've never attended a Malay wedding from the beginning (the first function) until the end. Tonight will be the last function, so woo!

Today, I actually went out with San, Azmi, and Shamsol to BRIDEX in the morning because apparently they bought the morning ticket when we were supposed to go in the afternoon. It's a good thing we got those instead because they had the demonstrations in the morning only. Man, the first demonstration made me feel like a video game especially with the sound effects playing in the background, haha. Perhaps next time I'll post up the video I took. Bleh, it's such a pity I couldn't use a proper camera. Ah well. Funny thing is that I actually spotted one of the army guys hiding out in the tree before the show and when I pointed that out to my classmates, they couldn't see him until he got out from the tree. Maybe I've got a keen eyesight. *puts up specs* Haha.

After both demonstrations, we headed for the Expo. I actually got to meet some of my cousins, Abang Zuwairi, and even Rif. Damn, he was so cruel. He ignored me and when he was talking to me, he kept on punching me. Haha. Anyways, I didn't get to see Sar at work. Sayang.

Later on, San really wanted to treat us for lunch, so we head off for Kaizen Sushi Restaurant (sp?) in Kiarong. Man I had quite a good laughs there. San is really a funny guy.

Shamsol sent me home and I went to sleep. The end!

Chapter 126: Kerang

2009-07-21T08:04:00.004+01:00

Because I smell like it right now. Haha.

Hey guys, I'm finally in Brunei! I came back a few days ago.

In case you guys didn't know, I was actually in Jakarta when the suicide bombing happened. It was like, 15 minutes drive from where I was at when it happened. No, I didn't hear to bombs exploding and stuff. Plus, I was asleep. Haha.

It shook me up, to be honest, but I wasn't panicking. It's crazy stuff though, I can tell you that. We were quarantine because they were scared it might happened where we were staying since we had a lot of foreigners in the building. Yeah.

Now I understand why all those security checks have been made before we entered a shopping mall. We're all safe and sound, so do not fret.

Anyways, I'll catch you later.

P.S. I'm going to need some of you guys' numbers.

Chapter 125: Balik Kampung

2009-06-26T12:45:00.002+01:00

So here's the deal.

We're going to Brunei on the 10th of July and arriving on the 16th of July.

No, we have NOT received our letter to go back to Brunei for good; however, me and Kaka are going back to Brunei to study, so me and her will be the one returning to Brunei for good.

I'm going to miss the culture here: I think especially the food. Haha.

I'm definitely going to miss my friends here. I'd say a lot of meaningful things, but there's just too much to say and I get the feeling I wouldn't be able to express it well. So, yes, I'll miss you guys.

Also, RIP MJ. I heard it last night from my mom.

I really love his music. I grew up with it and heck, I still listen, sing, and even dance to his songs 'til this very day. For real.

BILLIE JEAN, IS NOT MY LOVERRR.

Anyways, that's all I wanted to say. Take care!

Chapter 124: Portrait and Scenery Paintings

2009-06-11T19:09:00.003+01:00

Two paintings I finished this week. They're my first traditional portrait and scenery paintings. Go me!

Parents Portrait by ~zeechan on deviant ART

Sunset by ~zeechan on deviant ART

Chapter 123: Circle Diplomatic Gala Night

2009-06-01T22:37:00.002+01:00

Last night I had to perform for the Circle Diplomatic Gala Night. One of the princesses of Morocco requested an Indonesian dance and we gave her two: one performed by the children and by the aunties and I. It sure was tiring! Well worth it though.

We heard that the princess left after our performances even though there were other performances going after ours. That must've said something, right?

Me, Auntie Rury, and Auntie Rini. We sure are fabulous!

I managed to upload the video my mom took eventhough she wasn't allowed. Ah well, no harm done!

Enjoy!

Chapter 122: Nuh-uh Festivals

2009-05-17T23:18:00.002Z

Sigh, well I didn't get to go to the animation festival. Such a pity, really. I really wanted to go.

Speaking of festivals, this week there's a music festival held in Rabat where even international artists like Alicia Keys, Stevie Wonder, and others performing and guess what? They're free! Well, unless you wanted to go for a better view, that's got a price on it. What's even cool is that it's even held in the same area where my house is, so it's quite near!

I was planning on going to the Alicia Keys concert held this Friday, but I read up that her concert was going to last for 30 minutes and well, I'm not going to waste 200 Dh and I'm not really a huge fan of hers; although I do enjoy her music, but whatever. I think I need to save my money for something more useful. Jaa.

I've been told that I'll be dancing with the Indons for Gala Night something, something, haha. I think it was called Goyang Gombret? I don't know. Should be uh.. fun.

Something that has been kind of bothering me lately: people need to grow up. Seriously. That is all.

Catch you later.

Chapter 121: FICAM

2009-05-07T23:17:00.002Z

I actually discovered a few days ago that they actually held an animation festival called FICAM (Festival International de Cinéma d'Animation de Meknès) here in Morocco. It's the first event ever to be held in Morocco and in the African continent. How cool is that?

This year, they're having British animators come over to this event. Arghhh, the co-founder of Aardman Studios, David Sproxton, who created Wallace & Gromit will be there! I used to watch this cartoon with my cousins; however, not as much as them. I noticed they adored stop motion animations more. I digress.

The event actually started today and ending on the 15th of May. It is taking place in Meknès, which is about 1-2 hours drive. My mom has been trying to convince my dad so we can go on Saturday, but he's not giving any good signs. I really wish he could let me go. C'mon Dad, this is once in a life time deal! Let me goooo.

If I actually did get to go, oh gee. I don't even know what to ask or say to them! They ARE professional animators. Bwaaaaah!

Sigh, speaking on animations, I'm working on a very short animation at the moment for Mother's Day. Haha, I hope I'll complete it. It's really silly. /grin

Alright, catch you later guys! Wish me luck on going to the event!

Chapter 120: Audrey The Mechanic.

2009-04-29T23:31:00.004Z

More photos of this cosplay can be found here.

I know I mentioned that I'll be posting up my cosplays over at my livejournal, but I thought I'd post up here whenever I have a definite one finished, so I guess you can call this one a completed cosplay. Hurrah!

I really wanted to do a mini photoshoot of Audrey Ramirez from "Disney's Atlantis: The Lost Empire" since I found a perfect place to do it, so I finally got off my butt to do it yesterday.

I'm quite surprised no one else has cosplayed her despite how easy her costume is. She quite a loveable character - I love her accent, haha. Anyways, I really thank all the comments I've been receiving thus far. You guys are awesome! Good for a second cosplay, yes?

Alright, catch you guys later!

Chapter 119: EMPCI BBQ Party

2009-04-23T20:52:00.004Z

I got invited to a farewell party for Mr. Meher which took place today. It was going to be a BBQ party and I heard a certain someone's PS2 was going to be there, so why not, right? Haha.

Going back to EMPCI felt sort of nostalgic - the classrooms, seeing the staff, and the students taking their exam. Yeah, I didn't actually know they were taking their exam and Miss. Hanane said I could enter the class. It was really nice seeing everyone again.

Everyone said I looked totally different. In summary of what they all told me, I'm a 23 year old Chinese college student who should get married. Haha. I think it's because I had my hair up and I was wearing a skirt. Maybe.

I have to say the BBQ was delicious! I really wanted to eat more, but sadly, I could not. I think the food was finished by then. Boo. Seriously a big thanks to Ali for cooking them. Yummmm. All of us had to spoons to eat the food, but luckily Mike was nice enough to lend me his fork and knife. Bwahaha!

The pasta we brought was completely vacuumed by the the students and teachers who ate it. It was interesting to know that Miss. Hanane actually found it spicy. It's funny how the starter food was sort of similar to one another. There was actually two pastas brought in and the rice salad Mike brought had same ingredients as this other pasta. Sort of anyways.

While some stayed inside to play some Tekken, WWE, or Guitar Hero...

Others who were outisde were too busy dancing their butts off to some arabic music. It was hilarious! They even made ME go up on the table to dance. I was only able to display some arm wave-ing and a 5-second belly dancing move. Haha. You guys are so silly. I was enjoying listening to Amin play Jason Mraz's "I'm Yours" before Azeez's mother turned on the radio and arabic music was just blasting through. Ah well, right?

Although I haven't been to the college for a year, I really miss the family feeling within EMPCI. It's a pity this might be the last day of EMPCI, forever. EMPCI was there for me when I needed to move out of KGS and it has given me an oppoturnity to earn my own high school diploma which taught me a lot of subjects which I have never thought I would learn, educational-wise anyways. Socially speaking, students were really nice to me and the teachers were pretty cool. Plus, this was where I found kitty Benji. But anyways, I'm sure all of you are glad to be part of EMPCI, because I am.

Thanks Mr. Meher for making EMPCI such an amazing college in such short time and for the times you've helped me. I hope you'll have fun in Canada!

Chapter 118: Paruresis

2009-04-20T19:24:00.002Z

I think I just discovered I have a disorder - an anxiety disorder.

If you are disturb by the next paragraph, you can totally skip reading this.

I stumbled upon a video on Youtube by Embarrassing Illnesses which talked about a man in his 60's who has paruresis. This illness (also called Shy Bladder) is basically a person who has problem peeing in public toilets or/and just can't do their "business" if someone is around.

I've had this problem ever since I was a kid; I was probably around 9-10 years old. My problem is that, embarrassing as I have to say it, I just don't like people hearing me pee and public toilets are so.. dirty, even though they are pretty clean. I just can't stand the thought of some stranger's butt on that toilet seat and ugh. So if I need to go, I have to hold it in and do it at home. Yeah.

If I'm sleeping over at a friend's house, I can't have them staying in their bedroom (if their bathroom is connected to their bedroom), otherwise I can't pee. It's just disturbing to know that maybe they could hear me peeing from the other side, y'know?

I also cannot go to the restroom in the airplane. ...Yes, I have to hold it all in throughout the whole journey. Unless I seriouslyyy need to go. Once, I actually only went TWICE to the toilet: before I left the country and after arriving in our hotel which was like, more than 12 hours. Actually, that's not surprising since I can go peeing twice a day.

Although I can now go do my business in certain public places, if someone is there, I just can't do it or I have to wait until they leave. Hm, now thinking about it, I'm not comfortable with ANYONE when I'm doing my business including my family. Sigh. Also, I think because I'm so used to it, that sometimes I forget that I need to pee. Yes, I am not lying.

I didn't really know this was an actual anxiety disorder, I thought it was just me being paranoid (because I'm awesome that way). I also didn't know other people suffered from this. It's kinda sad really.

Hey, at least I discovered something interesting. There is something wrong with me! Haha.

Chapter 117: Zee Fit!

2009-04-18T01:04:00.006Z

My guests, who were Auntie Swarna, Kaka Amalina, Kaka Nisa, and Abang Awi, left Morocco more than a week ago. It was really nice having them around. Bonding time was great especially karaoking past midnight. Haha. It was also great that we went to Marrakech and even rode on camels! The only names I could remember were Aisha and Shakira. Oh, and the silly henna thing - I still have mine. So really, thank you guys for dropping by to Morocco!

I also got to know Dayat, Rayma's brother. We actually had quite a few things in common. I apologize I didn't get to talk to you as much as I would have liked. My sister really enjoyed having someone to talk to, so uh yeah. You should loosen up though, you were pretty shy! Drop by again, yes?

Anyways, this week I thought to myself I shouldn't waste this opportunity of having such a huge backyard and not do any excercise, so I start jogging at my backyard. 20 laps with a break of every 4 jogs nonstop is the furthest I could go this week. You have no idea how sore my legs are. I wanted to do 25 laps today, but I had to stop at 12 laps because the pain in my legs got the better of me. Urk. I think I'm going to give myself a rest for the weekends and jog for the weekdays. Wish me the best of luck!

Right now, I'm working on a portrait of my parents. I hope it comes out well. Meep.

Chapter 116: Earth Hour

2009-03-28T21:44:00.002Z

Earth Hour by ~zeechan on deviant ART

Wow, Earth Hour is done and over with already. Man, an hour passes by so quickly nowadays.

I was too busy taking pictures with my siblings and mom and having fun with playing shadows, so we weren't really keeping track of the time. I was carrying my DS around with me in case I got bored, but hey, it never happened.

It would be totally awesome if we did Earth Hour everyday or at least once a week. You can't even feel the hour go by. Earth Hour is awesome. Yes.

Anyways, I'm having guests coming over on the 1st of April. I think they're planning on staying for 5 days or something. Some of them are going to take over my room, so I had to clean my room and make it all sparkly clean! ...Well, not really. That's for the maid. I'm not good at that. Yeaaah.

Don't really have much to say. Sigh.

Chapter 115: I'm La Zee. ...Get it?

2009-03-18T22:50:00.003Z

Yesterday I had to perform the.. uhm, Leeving dance (or whatever it is called). I haven't compressed the video yet, so you'll just have to wait. I can't seem to upload uber long videos on Youtube, so I have to upload them on Facebook. I hope you don't mind, anti-Facebook people! It's not like you can clearly see me on the video anyways - something blocked the view of where I perform. Yeaaah.

Enjoy some pictures!

Haha, I actually wore one contact lens because my right eye seemed to have trouble accepting the other contact lens. I think it's expired already - I'm going to need to throw them out. That is why my eyes look weird in the pictures if that's what you are wondering.

We were told that Ibu Dewi will be staying for another 3 months, so the farewell parties will be cancelled. Thank goodness! These past few weeks I've been struggling on what to perform for her farewell. Aaah, wait- that means I don't get to show the Algorithm March to her. Awww. We better do it for Devmeet, guys! Haha.

I just realized the majority of people who come to my blog just come to see the picture I drew of Yuffie 2 years ago. I figured much since she is from Final Fantasy 7. Meh.

Okay! I should let you guys know about my other blog on Livejournal.com . It's basically where I post up my cosplays and/or experimenting different cosplays, rant about whatever, some artwork, and just be free to write bullcrap! If you are interested, check it out:

Lazy people are always eager to do something.

I tend to update more regularly on that blog since I don't need to put a title to put up an entry. It's that cool. Haha.

Laters!

Chapter 114: Achy Breaky Body

2009-03-14T20:37:00.002Z

My body right now is in a lot of pain.

No, I was not in an accident, but the activities I've been doing recently is giving my body tremendous torture. I have a dance to perform on Tuesday, so I've been practicing this Monday, yesterday, and today and the last rehearsal is on Monday. Yesterday, before I did my dance practice, I joined the other ladies to excercise (if you know me, excercise and I don't mix well together) and it felt more intense on other days I joined it. The night before that I went bowling with my parents and their friends and they decide to do a small tourney. My team won, but man the next day I woke up, my arm went all sore. Also, I mentioned that I have dance rehearsal on Monday and once I'm done with that, I'm going to go play bowling due to the Brunei embassy holding an Asian bowling tournament on the 21st of March if I'm not mistaken.

Speaking of holding something, this upcoming Saturday we're going to have a farewell party for Ibu Dewi in the house. We're going to do the Algorithm March for her. Oh snap! The day Reenah and I have to perform River Flows In You will be the farewell party held at the Indonesian embassy. Gah! So much to do really, but I bet it's really not that much if you think about it. Perhaps it just means I'm unfit. HAHA, probably.

OH YEAH, everyone should totally do the Earth Hour on the 28th of March at 8.30pm following your local time. I told my family we should do this and they agreed (well, apart from the moaning queen). I wish everyone could do this every day though, but hey, it's a great start! SAVE THE EARTH PEOPLE! SAVE ITTTTT!

Okay, I seriously need to rest.

Laters!

Chapter 113: River Flows In You

2009-03-11T00:38:00.004Z

For piano goodness!

I'm not sure if I mentioned it here, but Onichan dared me to play "River Flows In You" by Yiruma and I took up the challenge! I just practiced during my spare time, so it's kind of.. 1-2 months late. I can't say it was an easy song, it is tough! Especially the fast pace parts. Crazy stuff, but I got most of it in the end. There are a few mistakes towards the end, but I do have a hang of the song now. Woo! Go me!

Fun fact: This song is Bella's Lullaby from Twilight.

You probably knew that though; although, I didn't until I was browsing through YouTube. Hah, horrible, I know. I'm not a fan of Twilight, so whatever.

Since this blog really looks empty without pictures, here are some photos taken when I had to model for the Korean ambassador on 27th of February. I would've uploaded these sooner, but mom forgot to upload them. Yeaah.

My first outfit for the fashion show.

Me practicing before the guests arrived. Oh dear.

All the models. I'm the only one not showing my teeth here, hah.

With Ifi, Auntie Manal, Zara, and Auntie Bude. Argg, they are so adorable!

My second outfit. We seriously had like, 5-7 minutes to change into our outfit before our song played. The top had so many freaking buttons and hooks while the sarong had to be tied around my waist and all. There's also changing jewelleries and shoes. Man!

"Dapat kawin sudah ni." - Mom.

All of us. Boomshakalaka.

Hey, what can I say? It was a short performance for some special guests. Nothing too grand.

Anyways, I need to sleep. I've got painting class tomorrow. Laters!

Chapter 112: Ano.

2009-03-03T00:20:00.002Z

I have no idea why I even want to say that word.

Anyways, I'm sick. Woo! Go me! Sore throat is majorly awesome. It's lessening a tinsy bit though. It's looking good.

My laptop has been internetless for a week now. My wireless adapter died on me unexpectedly, so I won't be appearing on MSN and Skype for a while. Sorry guys. I can still check my DeviantART, Facebook, and all, so you guys can still contact me. Yep. I'll just hijack Zaza's laptop. Bwahaha!

I seriously need to get back to animating. I noticed I'm asking for too much in Bubble Blues especially for movements such as running. Ah jeez, but I was watching some animation shorts by Unknown-Person over at DeviantART and his work is motivating me. What kind of sucks is that my Flash can die on me whenever it wants to. Urk. Bad computer, bad!

Anyways, catch you later!

Chapter 111: For Good?

2009-02-20T15:00:00.002Z

Since my parents decided to tell everyone here about the news, I guess that means I'm allowed to tell everyone too!

We will be returning to Brunei for good either in June or July.

I don't know all the details, but we have received a phone call from someone in MFA and they notified us that there will be someone replacing us. They asked dad if we wanted to be posted to another country or what-not and dad requested if we could stay in Brunei. Yeaaah.

I'm not really confident if it's going to happen or not, but my parents are since the boss is already here and all.

Now we're just waiting for the letter for confirmation and whether or not we're going to be posted in Brunei or to another country.

We shall see, my friends.

Laters.

Chapter 110: Slowly Improving

2009-02-19T21:40:00.002Z

Sorry I haven't really been updating over here. My bad.

I started Painting Class last week. It's been great.

I haven't really started painting, but I've been doing anatomy practices as well as portraits. It's been really good practice. I can already draw fat people and old men! Woooo! Well, a nice attempt anyways.

My teacher said I'll be starting painting soon, so yay. I can't wait!

Uh, I can't think of anything else.

OH YEAH, mom said the Indonesians want me to model. ...Again. Urk. Why me? WHY?! Not like I asked for it, and they're practicing it tomorrow. I don't want to wake up tomorrow. Booooo.

I'm actually in a bad mood at the moment.

Laters.

Chapter 109: 18th Birthday Parties

2009-02-08T01:43:00.005Z

That's right.

Two parties. Just got back from the last one an hour ago. I'm pretty much worn out. Thank you Kaka Rayma & parents for holding my birthday party there. Ohohoho.

I would like to thank everyone on MSN, FB, DA, & Skype for the wishes. You guys are awesome. The presents I've received are cool as well. So much love to those who gave me presents. Thank youuuuuu!

Haha.

Goddd, and my cakes were totally kickass.

The cake Rayma's dad ordered for me. Simple and wait, YAY AN "18" KEY!

Thank you Mike for baking the cake for me. Loooove!

Thank you Mom for following through my requests to make a smoked salmon & caviar cake. It's full of win. Oh baby.

Pictures from the first party is located here. The second batch will be uploaded uh.. Well, probably later on today. Just keep an eye out, alright?

Anyways, parties went swell and everyone thought I was more.. girly. Uhm, yeah.

Well, it's confirmed I'll be starting my painting class on Wednesday. How cool is that?!

Laters.

Chapter 108: I'm Legal, You're Legal, We're All Legal!

2009-02-06T00:54:00.006Z

First of all...

Happy freaking 20th birthday, Onichan!

Hope your celebration goes great. It's awesome to have a cousin who has similar interests & shares the same birthday. Thanks for being great man. Haha.

If I'm not mistaken, it's Jacky's birthday as well, so happy 19th birthday Jacky! /smile

So like, I turn 18 today. Wooooo. I'm going to celebrate my birthday with my friends later on today. I'll try get some pictures later.

Secondly, Sar wanted to see pictures of my new hairdo so:

Before

After

Yep!

I'll update you guys later then.

Bye.

Chapter 107: Sew, Sew, Sew

2009-02-03T22:27:00.004Z

It's February. Hurrah! 3 days left until my birthday arrives. Oh my!

I've been in the mood to sew, I guess. I made a second version of Nodame's piano bag for Bebe.

Today, I finished making a Moogle Scoodie.

Haha, Reenah totally wants to wear it to school tomorrow. How awesome. I just hope the red part doesn't fall off!

Going uh.. shopping with Mike tomorrow. Wig shopping. Nyahaha!

Okay, I'm just.. going to go now.

See you.

Chapter 106: Almost Legal

2009-01-29T14:51:00.003Z

I finished making my portfolio. Wooo, now I just got to get all those certificates and all, send it through the Diplomatic bag, et voila. Wish me good luck!

My birthday is next week. Going to hit the legal age - 18. Yikes! I think I'm accepting it already, but.. it's just unbelievable. Probably going to invite some former classmates. I'm going to have a BBQ. Woooo! I'll try provide you guys pictures, alright?

I might remove my shoutbox. It's so.. lonely and it makes me sad.

Laters.

Chapter 105: R.I.P. Youssef Khales.

2009-01-18T16:08:00.001Z

My former classmate passed away last night in a motorcycle accident. He went too fast and smashed into a tree. I'd rather not share the details to what happened to his body.

I was never close to the guy, but he was still one of my former classmates. It's very hard to believe he's not here anymore.

Al-Fatihah.

Chapter 104: UK?

2009-01-18T01:01:00.003Z

These past few days I've been trying to apply to universities in London. It's really complicated mannn. The whole UCAS thing and all. I'm getting some help from a family friend there, now all I've got to do is just prepare a portfolio.

Eh, life drawing is not really my thing, but I'm going to need to do it if I really want to go to the university.

Zee Screams by ~zeechan on deviant ART

Meep meep.

I really hope it comes through to me going to London. Kind of sick of staying at home (well, not really haha) and being pestered by some people. I've been daydreaming about it already; meeting former classmates, meeting & making new friends, visiting my cousins, walking down in Hyde Park, ~~doing silly stuff~~ AND YEAHHHH. I better stop that.

Oh yeah, congrats to the new couple. /giggle

Chapter 103: Snow, Here We Come!

2009-01-10T00:14:00.003Z

It's that time of year again and we're guessing there's snow in Ifrane. Woo!

I just packed just to be on the safe side. The last time I played in the snow, got my jeans soaked and I was freezing for more than 3 hours. It sucked since it was night time too.

Anyways, I'll just be there for a day. Probably going to meet some former classmates as well. We shall see.

I'll catch you guys later!

Laters.

EDIT:

Okay! Finally got the pictures in!

CHECK IT OUT.

Chapter 102: What Am I Going To Do?

2009-01-04T22:47:00.003Z

"Forget about it!"He says.

Hmm. I wonder what's going to happen to me now?

Oh, I loved how I fooled everyone with my new "hair-do." Haha.

Got nothing to do. I've been looking up tutorials so I can follow them when I need inspiration or something.

I miss my cousins. /sadface

Chapter 101: 2008 Is Coming To An End.

2008-12-29T22:35:00.005Z

Happy New Year to both the Islamic and Christian calendar. This will probably be my last post of the year, so I might as well.

I checked my old post about this year's resolution. Let's see if I did good:

* Concentrate more on improving my weak points in art e.g. EVERYTHING.
* Read books. Srsly.
* Improving my vocabulary.
* Pass my American High School Diploma.
* Convince my parent's to get me braces. ...Yeah.
* Gain some working experiences.
* Improve my voice acting.
* Try to slowly confront my feelings towards friends and family.
* Get myself a man before the deadline. Lolwut.
* Attend one of the Brunei DeviantART Meets.
* Develop a demo reel for my voice acting.
* Animate moar!
* Gain a bit of height, or Kate could give me some!

Okay! I got 6 out of 13 out from the list. Not bad, if you think about it. So, yay me!

Now, for next year's resolution:

* Attend one of Brunei DeviantART Meets.
* Animate a short film.
* Be more sociable.
* Doodle more.
* Earn driving license.
* Improve art weaknesses. [note: everything]
* Improve vocabulary.
* Pray 5 times a day.
* Read books.
* Gain some working experiences.
* Go to an animation school.
* Get braces.
* Keep track of dreams.
* Keep track of money spent.
* Learn more survival skills. [e.g. cooking, cleaning, etc.]

I've repeated things I've gotten accomplished because it never hurts to improve. Hurrah!

So, let's see if I can summarize 2008 for me to you:

My kitty Benji passed away on the 30th of January.

Got an awesome camera and a blue cake for my birthday. Woo!

First time travelling without my family. Ifrane trip. Oh schnap.

We got colourful chicks. Chirp-chirp. Gave them away though.

First time meeting one of my second cousins from Kuching.

Got into an e-relationship. Didn't work out.

Asked to be demoted from the VAC and left the forum. Visit from time to time though.

Made new friends. Totally awesome.

Modeled for three fashion shows.

Made a funny video:

Was told we were extended to stay in Morocco for another year. Nyeh.

Moved to a new house. I have my own room. YAAAAY!

Celebrated Raya in Brunei after 5 years.

Got to hangout with DAers this year again. Met Nana and Jacky for the first time. Karaokeeeee. Oh baby!

Finally got a DS Lite!

Graduated from high school.

Got hooked on Asian dramas.

Found old video tapes. Ah, memoriesss.

SOOO YEAH. It's been some year. I'm hoping 2009 will be one successful year! Best of luck to all and I wish you all a Happy New Year!

Chapter 100: Hello Big One Oh Oh

2008-12-22T23:08:00.009Z

Wow, 100 entries. It must be a new record! I've never written in a journal with that amount of posts. I must be really jobless.

As to celebrate, I'm here to present you Zee singing and playing Tong Hua! It's in English, so yeaaah.

So, I've mentioned before that I now own another blog. Don't worry, I'll still be blogging on this blog, but it's only meant to state the general. This blog was also meant to help me write better in English and I just kind of lost that idea in mind and started bringing up stuff like "LOL WTH" and "LMAO" or started speaking in Malay (though I'm way terrible in that, but nyeh.)

Anyways, if you just want to keep track of what I do (or just want another person on your Link section), you can just keep track of this blog. Though, if you want more details (serious) and/or enjoy my usual retarded "lol wth jubur [insert smiley face here]" stuff, just ask me for the link, and I'll give it to you. Though it might depend, but otherwise, it should be no worries. My new blog is just a place to blurt out and jaaa.

Sigh, on an education related note, it's getting complicated (yet again). Parents are deciding to change their minds on where to send me to study. It's so troublesome. Sigh.

I really should get back to animating. I've been slacking way too long. I really cannot wait until I finish Bubble Blues though. Love love loooove. I am really a lazy bummmm.

OHHHH YEAAAH. BRUNEIANS! LISTEN UP!

The Official Devmeet is being held on the 27th of December over at Bangunan Kompleks Muhammad Yusof.

You'll meet lots of artists of different kinds and hey, cosplayers! I heard there's going to be more than 20 cosplayers? Isn't that something!

There's going to be a lot of activities done there. Mini games as well, nyahaha. For more information, check Rai's journal.

You're going to need an get an invitation, so if you read up on Rai's journal, you'll get the details you need. I know it's going to be great! /smiles

I wish I could go, but alas, I'm in Morocco. Heh. I'm sure everyone will have a blast!

I'm going to go now. Laters.

Chapter 99: You're Legal, Sar.

2008-12-17T23:51:00.001Z

My sisters and I surprised my parents an hour ago with showing them a CD dedicated to them for their 19th wedding anniversary (which is today if you guys weren't paying attention).

I am glad to say they really liked it. /smiles

I would post up one of the videos we did, but you wouldn't really understand.

Also, Sar..? Remember this collage you did years ago?

I decided to update it.

Hehe, Happy 18th Birthday, Sar<. You've been way too awesome. Thanks for always being there for me. Through out these years together, you're the only person I'm actually feel like I can just relax and be myself. If it weren't for you, I'd probably be some plain old Zee with no sense of humour.

Actually, I'm sorry, that was too gay.

I ruv j00, Ni Hao Ma, and *beats you up and feeds you to the grannies*.

Dude, you're finally legal. Get a freaking license and run down all the hobos!

Cousins definitely forever.

(Credits to Muien for the ambigram)

Chapter 98: I'm Still Too Overwhelmed.

2008-12-14T15:00:00.005Z

From being online friends to childhood friends?!

ARGHHASJFLASKJROAWNRKLFJAORWQ

I knew a day like this would come, but I never thought it would have been Azi!

HERE WE GO! IT'SSS A SMALL WORLD AFTER ALLLL~

Chapter 97: Brunei '08

2008-12-12T23:47:00.013Z

[LAST UPDATE: 22nd of March, 2009]

Sorry I never got to update this entry. The pictures are uber huge (2000x1600 if I'm not mistaken) and I have only managed to get it up to Part 9 thus far. I took the liberty to shrink as much pictures as I could recently, so I'll try upload them as soon as I can. Sorry guys.

PART ONE

PART TWO

PART THREE

PART FOUR

PART FIVE

PART SIX

NOTICE: RAYA PICTURES ARE STARTING FROM THIS ALBUM AND ONWARDS!

PART SEVEN

PART EIGHT

PART NINE
(Incomplete)

ENJOY!

Just something to share with you guys. Stole it from Sar's blog:

START

*reminiscing about the time we were at pantai muara in 2005*
*We managed to find a fish somehow near the surface & scooped it outta the water*

Zee says:
ZEE: HAHAHA look at it breathe! XD
SAR: LOLOLOL

-After a while-

SAR: okay let's put it back in the water-
ZEE: NO leave it! it looks funny!
FISHIE: *gasping for air very slowly
SAR: ZEE! IT'S GONNA DIE IF WE DON'T
ZEE: NOOOOOOO!
SAR: *puts fish in water*
ZEE: damn it

*And the random-ness begins here*

Zee says: i think we should work with animals :'D

Zee says: LMAO

Sar says: hahaahhaa

Sar says: *goes to sea world*

Sar says: -the next day-

Sar says:
News reporter: Sea world is forced to shut down due to a bizzare huge loss of our friendly sea creatures

Zee says: HAHAHAHAHA

Sar says:
News reporter: we have exactly no idea why but we seem to suspect two people working in the area

Zee says: god i finally got my water bottle opened and i almost splurted out laughing XD

Sar says: HAHAHAHAHAHA

Sar says: lolol

Zee says: hahahahaha

Zee says: god roflmaooo XD

Sar says: hahahahahaha

Sar says: *shows video of dolphins gasping for air in almost fully drained pool*

Zee says: LMAO XD

Sar says: *fishies all over the floor with lotsa broken glass&flooded floor*

Sar says: hahahahahahaha

Zee says: *two people lying around in the center of Sea World pretending to be dead seagulls*

Sar says: HAHAHAHAHA

Sar says: OMG

Sar says:
Our families at home: *watching the world wide news*the hell...mcm Sar&Zee...o_O nahhhh..cnt be??

Zee says:
TV:
SAR: Oh, the ah-gon-ee. Gwark!
ZEE: Are we dead yet? I mean- GurrrrawrrrkajrjakrjkalsrnsarljKKAHH!!

Sar says: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ='D

Sar says:
SAR: *looks at zee for a while*

Sar says:
SAR: umm yea..what she said Bleadkvoihvjsbvajvjvsnv

Zee says: haha

Zee says: god XD

Sar says: hahahaha

Zee says: i am so saving this convo :'D

Sar says:
SAR: *splatters ketchup&sticks out tongue*

Sar says: hahahaha me too!

Zee says:
ZEE: * helps put it for her too* o:

Sar says: hahahahaha

Sar says:
SAR: *gets up&puts some on zee too*

Sar says:
SAR: *gets back to pretending being dead*

Zee says:
Everyone watching TV: . . .
Little Boy: they're... they're...
The queen of england: MAGICAL SEAGULLS!

Sar says: HAHAHAHAHA

Sar says: omg

Zee says: *for a brief moment, the world goes hippy*

Zee says: *then goes down to bussiness by capturing the two people*

Zee says:
ZEE: this wasn't supposed to happen, was it? o3o

Sar says: HAHAHAHA

Sar says:
SAR: i want some weed =D

Sar says: *lain*

Sar says:
SAR: uhmm..u think we shud go fix this?*smoking a joint*hahaha

Zee says:
ZEE: ... nah. we should see what they want with us first

Sar says:
SAR: DEMOCRACYYYYY D=

Sar says: *doesnt even understand the term*

Sar says: LOL

Zee says:
News Reporter: The Queen of England claims that these "magical seagulls" holds true powers to make anyone fly just by eating its meat, thus death has been brought upon them :'D *eats a piece*

END

Chapter 96: New Sibling

2008-12-11T21:34:00.012Z

EDIT: Part 1 of my holidays in Brunei has been uploaded! Check it outtttt!

This might be hard to all take in, but..

My parents decided to adopt a baby boy.

Don't believe me?

HERE'S PROOF!

His name is Amin. Awwww.

Haha apakan. We were just baby sitting Auntie Najat's baby around this week.

Anyways, I'm sick at the moment. Got back from Casablanca a few hours ago and urgg, runny nose of doom.

OH YEAH, DAD BOUGHT ME WIRELESS ADAPTER SO I CAN USE THE HOME WIRELESS NOW NYAHAHA!

Well uh, since I've got nothing else to share, I'll just show you some old and new pictures I had on my phone /smile :

The Star Ipod Cover I sewed for Zaza months ago. Finally get to show it to you guys. Haha. It's kind of crappy though. Eeeeh.

Being a ninja. Shhhhh.

Some goats I saw along the sidewalk eating flowers. This is near by my former college. Yesss, near the farmmmmm.

Doesn't this just remind you of Silent Hill? This was one early morning when it was freaking foggy and this was just outside my (old) house! Le gaspe.

Some snuggly crown-shaped hats we found over at Aswak Salam. Wheeeee.

End.

Chapter 95: Herself Already Knows I'm Not Okay

2008-12-10T00:42:00.005Z

Well, I didn't really witness the slaughtering, but I saw and heard the lamb gasping for air (once in a while) while his neck was half attached to its body surrounded by a puddle of blood. Hmmm.

I'm sorry, was that disturbing?

Anyways, today was pretty fun. The Malaysian ambassador's house was kind of lame, so Reenah, Zaza, and I entertained ourselves by playing congkak lying on the table. Man, sure brings back memories of playing it with my former classmates in Sri Utama.

The Indonesian embassy was a blast. I karaoked quite a few times! I heard mom said that people enjoyed it and thought my voice was pretty good (yeah right, thanks for the compliments though). I got to sing Achy Breaky Heart, Ob-Ladi Ob-Lada, Y.M.C.A, Thriller, and I Will Survive. Hahaha, jeez. We were all singing along and man, it was like we blocked out the terrible weather today (it was freaking windy and rainy. It was as if the trees were going to fall).

And man, I look gorgeous today.

HAHAHA, apakan. Macam prasan sja. I decided to use my turquoise contact lens today (after having it sitting in my closet for more than a year? lmao). I seriously hope it won't go to waste. Wearing contact lens can really take energy out of you. I wonder if they sell daily use coloured contact lens out there? I bet they would cost a lot though. Urggg, why didn't I check during my last visit to Brunei? Silly me.

Bah, ciao.

Chapter 94: I Find Myself..

2008-12-08T23:57:00.005Z

Looking through custom-made those XIII costumes, awesome pictures of them on the beach, and now, in need to download Chains of Memories.

Guys. I think Kingdom Hearts still has a place in my heart.

Wtf is up wtih that?

I think due to the fandom that has caused me to shun myself way far from it. Sigh. AND I JUST LOVE DISNEY ASFJAKSLHASKLEJKLNSAEASRJ. Apakan.

Also, found out that there was a KH: 358/2 Days for the DS. ...What.

AND GAHHHH I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY HAVE POINT BLANK DS! I heart this game when I was a kid. It's silly and fun! I am happy. /grinsss

Anyways, I got to watch Snow White and The Little Mermaid last night. Maaan, I still love it. Snow White's voice could be a little annoying though. Haha. Though, it is amazing how all animated movies is thanks to Snow White. I watched through the Bonus Feature on the DVD and learned how hard it must have been to achieve that. It got me inspired to stop being a lazy bum and start animating seriously. Well, of course without taking the fun out of it. /smiles Anyhoo, I am SO going to try make a costume out of Snow White for Zaza (and me) and in the future, going to make mermaid finssss (once I can find a mono fin somewhere first teehee).

Lmao, mom has been hinting she wants to dye hair and I think I'm the victim. I think she's bored, haha. I don't really care all that much about dyeing hair as I did before (or perhaps everyone is doing it nowadays /blankface ), but I don't mind actually (but I won't be able to wear my extension hairclip). My older sis gave me a box of red dye before we moved in here and I've been looking through my old pictures with me with reddish brown hair, and I might just do it. I was kind of hoping to try an vibrant and rich orangey red colour (because I simply love red heads; they look mighty pretty) but I don't think it'll suit me. /sadface

Oh yeah, I got LJ. BOOYEAH.

OH ER RIGHT. Selamat Hari Raya and happy slaughtering kambings!

I think I should try witness the slaughtering this year and uh, blow them up like a balloon, but.. so kesian. Man it's going to smell like blood tomorrow.

I make it sound like a murder is going to take place.

Chapter 93: Dood!

2008-12-06T23:19:00.000Z

Sooo like, my connection has run out for last month and now I gotta wait for dad to bayar for it. Currently on my sister's laptop. Wheeee.

I would like to say Happy Birthday Cuboi! What are you now? 13 years old? Jeez, you've really grown. I remember how small you used to be! Haha. I also remember how you used to be a little annoying and I'd try to shoo you away. (I apologize though because I feel terrible for being that way all those years). Though, now I can finally speak to you casually without feeling irritated. Hope you enjoyed your birthday, start rocking on that new electric guitar you got, and just be yourself.

Urggg, my shoulder aches from playing bowling last night. How long has it really been since I last played? Perhaps in March or something, but yeaaaah. My siblings and I played with Anas and Nouma. You know what I noticed? Nouma and I have the same "C" moles on the right side of our faces! Seriouslyyyy. I didn't tell her though, but that was pretty darn neat. Aha.

Oh yeah! I finished playing Cruisin' and Sweatin' on Elite Beat Agents. I'm currently playing the Hard Rock level and it's a bit tough (No duh). The cheerleaders are something. They're cute characters! I wonder if there is another tougher level than this. Hrmmm, I can only wonder. And and I love these old school music. I know most of the songs and it's fun to play along to it. Yaaay. I want to play it with someone other than Zaza (her DS sucks, so blech). /batter eyelashes

Pleaaaaaseee?

Also, I got my Disgaea DS working! All I have to do is that after I save, turn off my DS, return to the game and check whether or not the save file is still there. The last time I didn't do that, the game corrupted and thus, had to be deleted. Eeeeh. Oh oh, having Pleinair around is seriously helpful! Most of the time when the opponents attack her, it just simply says "Miss!" and she can quickly counter them. Plus, she levels up quicker than Laharl. I think it's due to the weapon she owns; freaking 38 Hits on the weapon man! Moreover, the Prinny commentary is simply a must to get when playing the game. The Prinny comments when a scene is playing and honestly, it had me going into "giggle mode". You know what sucks though? Getting the approval from the senators and Get it if you're playing it. GET ITTT DOOD.

I'm almost finished paying off the days I didn't fast during Ramadan. It's a nice way to past the time anyways. Oh, and my ustaz says I'm going to try finish the Al Quran one of these days. Gulp.

Oh! I'm slowly getting used to using the sewing machine now. Well, actually I've only used it for one day, but I've learned things I should really not do. Sewing something very small is.. very hard to invert it especially if the hole is too small for the inside to be inverted. Gaaah. I've already sewn bunny ears, but they look horrible. I screwed up the pink bit of the ears and cannot be bothered to put them on there now. Plus, I can't make it seem to stay hold on the headband. It's too.. heavy to stay up, and I messed up on not leaving more excess material below it. Bad Zee, bad Zee. Sigh.

Anyways, here's a Conversation Of The Day to end the post.

CONVERSATION OF THE DAY:
Taken place at Dee Jay, The Mall.

Rai: Heyyy, is that Zaza?
Zee: Uhmm, yeah.
Rai: OMG, look guys! It's Zaza!
Zaza: ?

Au Revoir, La Zee is out.

Chapter 92: Rewind Lagi Okey?

2008-12-01T23:43:00.009Z

Don't leave me yet!

Feed the pigeonsss.

Trick-o-treating in Hanoi International School.

Urk! We were such Gameboy Colour nerds. Hahaha. I remember we fought and traded Pokemons and all.

Performing in Sri Utama International School. We're so awesome.

This was a Bruneian dance taught by the Auntie who's standing in between all of us. I danced with Ridwan, Aimi was with Arif, and Sol was with Najatul. We were so adorableee. I think we even got onto the Yearbook cover that year. Haha.

I'd post more, but I want to watch me some Yuhee The Witch, so goodnight!

Chapter 91: Lend A Hand

2008-12-01T00:51:00.007Z

That's pretty much what I look like at the moment, but fatter because I placed a hot water bottle underneath my jumper to keep myself more warm.

The heaters in my house aren't working now, so we got to live with the cold. The small heater my mom gave me doesn't really help much unless I'm facing right at it and that's not healthy. /sadface I think that's why my legs were pretty numb last night. They were pretty "unlively" for a few hours or so. I think roughly for 3-5 hours. I can't recall because I tried sleeping later. Eeeeh.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention, I helped out in the A.I.W.A. Christmas Bazaar yesterday because, well, I wanted to. It was fun and for a good cause too! Yaaaay. Honestly, it's fun selling stuff, but I'm not good with maths when it comes to needing it upfront. I don't know, I think it's the way my brain processes. When people ask me a simple maths question which can easily be answered, my mind just goes blurrrrrr. I think that's why I hate maths. But anyways, I managed, so it's all good. We had a lot of customers and earned a lot of money. I am happy. /smiles I think these upcoming events such as the Bru Devmeet should do something for charity next time. I don't know lah, it's sort of something I want anyways.

Ah yeah, we celebrated Reenah's birthday in T.G.I Fridays later on that day. Nyamannnn. I want more steak please. I just simply loveeee the gravyyyy! Yummy-yum-yum.

Oh! I know how to play Simple & Clean and Still Alive with my right hand. ...So far. Well, I actually had the Simple & Clean music sheet like four years ago, but never bothered learning it and only got 1 page when it's supposed to be 4 pages. Eeeeh. That being said, I actually thought of an idea of doing a music video with Simple & Clean, though I might need a guy to help out. Maybe Mike. Hmmm. Haha.

Have you guys noticed I've been typing a lot in my post lately? I think I've just been feeling pretty uh.. "lonely". I miss my cousins and friends. I keep looking through people's pictures and it makes me smile and sad at the same time. Well, during these hours anyways. I think I might start having an LJ, so I can censor stuff like this so you don't have to suffer from reading all of it. Hmm, I'm not sure. I think I might get an opinion from someone who's used both this and LJ. We shall see.

Alright, my back hurts. I'll catch you guys later.

An nyeong ha se yo! 8D

Chapter 90: Why The Sudden Interest?

2008-11-30T01:49:00.005Z

Ack, I got hooked on playing Persona 3 again. Haha, oh boy. I'm trying to aim to get all the Social Links and see how many awesome fusions I could do. /smiles

It made my legs numb from sitting and playing it for a few hours.

No, seriously, it did. I really can't feel them right now.

Or maybe because it's really cold lately.

Hmmmmm.

HMMMMMM.

Sadly, the Persona 3: FES I bought does not work on my PS2. Apparently, games bought from EGM work (and possibly some games in KL as well) while others are well, not recognized anymore. Pourquoi?!?!

Oh yeah, in case anyone of you were wondering why I've taken up a liking to cosplaying. It's because I'm jobless.

Haha, no, I kid. To be honest, I've.. always wanted to dress up as characters as a kid. I was brought up that way, in a sense.

Eh? Brought up that way? How so?

Disneyland.

NYAHAHAHA. Apakan? Man, I'm wasting a lot of space. I wonder if that's hurting the environment in any way? Huh.

Well, my parents (or just my mom) used to like dressing us up and since we lived outside of Brunei, I guess you wouldn't get a freaky reaction from the crowd. I don't know lah, I'm just antam-antam saja. Haha.

Mom says my first costume was actually Minnie Mouse. Lol, and all this time I thought it was Snow White because that's all I've been seeing when browsing through old albums. That costume is now passed down to Zaza though. Well, actually she wears that Sleeping Beauty costume since she's growing. Meeeeh. If I ever see a decent picture of myself in it, I'll post it up. Mmkay?

My dream cosplay is Ariel from The Little Mermaid. She's been my all-time favourite Disney princess (Wow, I'm sounding so girly right now lolol.) and I remember in kindergarten there was this one girl (from my class perhaps because I wouldn't know why I was in that room) who actually got to dress like her. I recall it was in the afternoon and she was sitting on the table like a mermaid while everyone surrounded her in awe. Her 'fins' were freaking shimmering asnrklasrhaklsnre. Yeah, I just loved her costume. But, as you know, I just simply cannot do this cosplay. It's too... sexy. Urggggg. I want to be a mermaid too! Haha wth.

Oops, I got too carried away. Anyways, during my childhood, I got to go trick-or-treating with some children in Vietnam. Ah, it was uber fun. Our school also did one as well, where you go to every classroom, knock on their doors and ask for candy. Mmmm yeah. Malaysia didn't help either. We had school concerts as well and you get these cute costumes. At that time, I played a lot of video games. I've always wanted to dress up as Rinoa, Selphie, and Fujin from Final Fantasy 8, and Shorty from Bust-A-Groove, but it was just a dream. Dun dun dunnn. Plus, I think we got to go out for Halloween twice our stay in KL. Woooo.

I grew up with an awesome cousin by my side and we'd always find things to past the time--dressing up was one of them. Sure, dressing up isn't exactly cosplaying, but at least we were starting somewhere, right?

I guess I'm always trying to find ways to be someone I'm not. It's not like I dislike myself, it's just always more fun to do that!

By the way, I've read stories of people and come across a few people not liking cosplay, but I don't get it. It's just the same as lingerie models or those who like to wear branded stuff. You people wear those branded clothes because either 1) you're just following a trend, or 2) you really like it and want to show it to the world. Well, I believe cosplaying is the same thing. It's like you're promoting the series/movie and bringing the character to life. Oh, and the reference to the lingerie models? Well, that could be in the sense of sexiness whereas cosplayers are in the sense of dorkiness. Haha apakan. Well, dorky can be sexy too! /winkwinknudgenudge Anyways, not all cosplayers are towards anime. There are some pretty kickass ones out there if you look hard enough.

Man, wouldn't it be awesome if I turned out to be an animator in Disney and worked part-time in Disneyland? HAHAHAHA, god.

It's just a hobby though. I'm sure by now you guys know I get bored by stuff easily unless the spark remains. Dancing, singing, voice-acting, disturbing people, dressing up, sewing, drawing, animating, gaming, annoying people, taking pictures, filming, being mean to people, ... man, that's some resume I've got there. Haha.

Actually, now that I think about it, I think all "art" related things have been in my childhood. I wanted my own sewing machine when I was 9, I had my first (Polaroid) camera when I was 7, etc etc. Then again, EVERYTHING IS ART. Look around you. Look at the things you come across every day. Go to the restaurant, look how they serve you the food. Everything = Art = Masterpiece of God. You've got to freaking appreciate it. /seriousface

Wtf is this? A lecture? Teehee.

Anddd this is probably why guys don't like me. Man I'm awesome. /puts on shades

Okay, seriously I don't know why my leg is really numb right now. Urggggg.

Mr. Hawt Bottleson, I hope you will keep me warm and snuggly all night long. Heart.

Chapter 89: You're 15, Hurrah!

2008-11-27T17:02:00.009Z

Happy birthday, dear Reenah. I hope your dreams will come true. Just keep moving forward and I'll be there to support you.

Also, happy birthday to Mike aka Lianheart.

Yesterday I got to buy lining and pink kain. Wooooo. I haven't started stitching it up yet, but yay! My kaching sudah habis though. Meeeh. I need to tukar duit fast. Haha.

The CD I bought for learning Korean finally works! I'm so happyyy. I already know some of the basics, but I just got to keep practicing. Mmmhmmm. I'm going to try learning orally first, then learning how to write it. Yeaaah. Fun stuff!

Eh, that reminds me, Kaka Bilah bought/gave me this Korean drama called Yuhee, The Witch and I got to say, I love it! It's hilarious. Haha. Sad thing, for me, is that the audio is split into Korean and Chinese and the subtitles are Malay and Chinese. Gaaaaah, ah well. I'm on episode 7 so far. I've got 9 left to go.

Moreover, Kaka Bilah sent in Mama Mia! The Movie, Madagascar 2, and High School Musical 3: Senior Year to us through her cousin. I watched all of them.

Mama Mia got me singing to the songs--the ones I knew anyways. It was fun. I do understand why Jeeb did not like the movie; Donna acted like a six year old kid as she told me before; however, the mother reminds me of my own mother in the way she acted. I do believe that Donna went overboard though. I mean, jeez! How do these women dance like their backs don't hurt? Haha what the hell, but seriously, it's freaky. The ending felt kind of.. "Oh let's just end it like this!" Errr, yeaaah. Also, I noticed an error in the film though; the part when Donna was singing to uh.. what's his face on their way to the wedding ceremony. She had her arms to her chest, and when the camera moved to another position, her arms were straight down. Haha, check it out. It was enjoyable though. I loved how all the songs blend into the movie. Yep, yep, all good.

Madagascar 2... God, I just love how they rendered the water. It looked so real. And and I love the very beginning where they always have the DreamWorks kid up sitting on the moon. Anyways, I knew that grandma was going to be the main character one day! Got me laughing, though some were kind of predictable. Eh, what do you expect right? The beginning got me and my siblings confused actually, but yeaaaah.

High School Musical 3 was okay. I had trouble listening to the audio because it was, well, very terrible. It was nothing to grand for me. To be honest, I don't know why I was drawn to this type of movie anyways. I think High School Musical has some brainwashing method in their movies. Believe me, I'm not the only one who says this. Haha. I do enjoy musicals though. Hmm, I don't know if I should rate this. Nyeeeeh.

Wow, it's almost coming to a 100 chapters on this blog. I'm guessing it'll reach that once this year ends or something. Is that a sign? Dun dun dunnn. I think I might do something new once it hits that number. Who knows. /grin

By the way, I thought I'd like to share this. The characters I've tried pulling off.

Noda Megumi from Nodame Cantabile.

Sentret from Pokemon Gijinka.

Shorty from Bust-A-Groove.

And Dorothy from Rune Factory 2.

Of course, there are problems with all of them.

Nodame; Well, I've got the bag. The outfit I'm wearing is suppose to be like this.

I guess I mixed two outfits. Haha.

Sentret; I'm going to make the bunny ears soon. Since I can't dye my hair to that colour, I decided to switch the colour of the ribbon and the hair. You can't really see it but I'm using an orange ribbon there. I don't want to ruin the shirt either, so that's why the white circle bit can be seen like it's not attached to it. Haha. I'm still having trouble coming across orange and brown leggings and if I knew where my freaking orange pants is, this would be completed, but eh.

Shorty; My favourite character on Bust-A-Groove. I love that game! But ughhhh, seriously! Why is it so hard to come across black and red stripes long sleeves? I tried hunting for them ever since my stay in Brunei and failed. A pink hat was also troubling to come across (without a brand on it anyways). Why are the simplest things to wear so hard to find? So, I just had to go with this at the moment. Let's just say this is Shorty in her way younger years. Lol.

Dorothy; I just started playing Rune Factory 2 (but I'm having trouble saving now. Gahhhh.) and I really like Dorothy (Ew, lesbo). Coincidentally, the jumper I had had the same colours as her green dress and a wig which suited her perfectly. I don't think I'm ever going to bother making the dress thing though so uh, I think I'm going to make her costume gangster style. Nyahaha, Gangster Dorothy, sup yo?

The other characters I could have pulled off (with the clothes/accessories I have at the moment) are Velma from Scooby Doo, Selphie from Final Fantasy 8, and probably Rinoa from Final Fantasy 8. Scooby Doo isn't my favourite cartoon, so.. out of the bag! I've got the boots and cowboy hat for Selphie, but not the outfit. For Rinoa.. I think it's the material of her blue outfit which is wrong, so nyeh. It's okay though, I shall do my best. /goes off for training Lol wth.

OH and:

Anyways, gotta go. An nyeong!

Chapter 88: Dear Meg

2008-11-23T20:33:00.019Z

Dear Meg,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but our horoscope doesn't match. I think I realized it last year at the mental hospital and I saw you put leeches on Manchester United's goalkeeper. I'm sure you're senile enough to understand that I did a sex change. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your suicide note as a memory. You should also know that I told my psychiatrist about your eggplant-fetishism.

Go burn,
Zee.

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Putting that aside, I really want to finish up Bubble Blues, but I'm currently struggling on animating one bit of this short film. I need help. Boooo. /sadface I think I should do some little practices. Meep.

Why does LJ look more fun than Blogspot? I wonder if I should change. Hrmmm. Though I believe if I want to use LJ I'm going to need to use the connection I'm currently using. I think my dad blocked some websites with the wireless (I'm not sure if he's doing it on purpose or what-not). Meeeeh.

Oh oh, I'm playing Phoenix Wright: Justice For All at the moment. Urg, I'm stuckkk. I'm on the case about the Nickel Samurai & Jammin' Ninja. By the way, I'm loving the game in terms of humour. It made me chuckle more than the first one. I haven't touch Phoenix Wright: Trials and Tribulations yet, but man this series sure is fun! I kind of spoiled myself when I looked for pictures from Ace Attorney: Apollo Justice. Ugh, the internet sure can be exploitable. Curses! I'm playing The Legend of Zelda: Phantom Hourglass all over again due to my DS card being all wonky on me. Gah. I want to download some more DS gamesssss.

OH YEAH, PICTURES OF BRUNEI 2008 HAS BEEN UPDATED. CHECK IT OUT!

Speaking of pictures~

Aren't I such a happy girl? Lol wth.

End.

Chapter 87: Or So I Think

2008-11-23T10:04:00.002Z

I want to let you guys know that this is where I'll be posting all my pictures from my holiday in Brunei this year. It's still in the progress of being uploaded, but so far it's doing a lot better than uploading it here and Flickr. Be sure to check it out! I'll let you guys know when I've finally uploaded all the pictures of that holiday, mmkay?

As far as videos goes, I still have trouble uploading them. It is seriously a pain in the llama.

There was a Diplomatic Bazaar held today and I got to buy some things! A DIY mosaic candle stand over at the Croatia table and this really adorable kitty-pattern cloth at the Japanese table.

I simply adore the pattern. Arggg, what a bargain too! I got it for 10DH which is simply B$2!

I wish I had more money on me, but I'm trying to save it on buying some materials. I'm going to need to sew another piano bag since I have a customer ordering for one at the moment. Hehe. That reminds me, I think I might try to learn sewing it with the sewing machine. Mom says she didn't want to teach me because she's scared I might stitch up my fingers (shudders), but if I don't try now, when will I be able to then?

Err relating to my animation course, I'm going to need to take TOEFL to get into that university, but another problem arises--the preparation held in Amideast starts early January and the Spring semester begins late January. I definitely know that once I take the test, I'm going to need to wait for a month for it. Eeeeeh, I wonder if they can just accept my English O'levels instead of TOEFL. Haha. It's basically the same thing.

Anyways, I gotta run. Laters!

Chapter 86: Hana Kimi SP

2008-11-18T01:26:00.004Z

That was awesome.

Not a disappointment, my friends. I love it!

Anyone who has watched it, did you guys noticed when Nakatsu was talking to Sano he pulled off a Makio from My Boss, My Hero? Man, I was so not expecting that! Haha, hilarious. Man, Nakatsu and his silly quirks. This is why I heart him. He's adorable and funny!

Also, some characters went, well, out of character. Perhaps it's because they were finally "feeling" it, but it felt weird and also girly-like (and I'm referring to the guys on this part); I guess it's just something for us to giggle at and it worked.

Oh, WHY DOES JULIA LOOK SO FAMILIAR?! Rupanya si Hibari, but I'm guessing it's not since the expressions look so different. Well, I'm not going to bother to check because it's nearly 2AM, so I'm just going to play my DS Lite until I start to slowly fall asleep.

Goodnight!

Chapter 85: Lost Footage Recovered.

2008-11-17T00:27:00.006Z

Ya Allah, no way!

I actually found the video which I acted in a preview play called "Oliver Twist" in ICS for Christmas, 2002. I was supposed to play for the real show, but due to my grandfather's 80th birthday that month, I couldn't. Yeaaah. I've been searching for years for this video! I'll try get it converted (it's in tape form) and upload it on YouTube. ...If I can. Sigh.

I played as the orphan leader, so I was a male. Yes, a pretty cute male too. Awww. Haha kidding. I just realized I was the only orphan kid speaking a lot. If not, more than Oliver himself- er herself.

Sorry for the ugly quality. I played it on the telly and then took pictures of it with my camera.

This is me before the show. I was talking to Hannah who played Oliver that time. Yay for funky hat! ....The heck, that just reminded me of Hannah Montana for some reason.

Jolly good day to you, good sir. Er, I mean ma'am!

"We're not supposed to talk here!" God, I'm not sure if I was trying to pull of an accent or was that really my way of speaking back then? Haha.

I'll teach you all there is to know. See? I'm a good kid. /smiles

Y'know we have freaking 3 bowls of gruels a day? THREE?!

We're praying that the show will end ASAP. Believe it.

Peek-a-boo! We see youuu.

We want more than three bowls! Seriously.

No. Seriously, I do.

Imagine this is some delicious gravy-fied turkey. Mmmmm delicious right?

Opps, I tossed it! Meep.

Hmmmm. I wonder.. how, I wonder why. Yesterday you told me about the blue blue sky.

Please donate gruel to us. Kthnxbai.

Aren't I just adorable? Haha.

If you ain't afraid, you get us more food. /shove

The final shove! Wooo!

Et voila. Those are the pictures I took. Now, I just got to try my best to convert then upload the video. Wheeee.

Sigh, that reminds me, I'm still having trouble uploading the karaoke videos I took. Sorry guys! My connection is still unreliable.

Nyeh, bye!

Chapter 84: Post Pic Plz?

2008-11-15T16:41:00.004Z

So like, my cousin Azzah tagged me.

1. Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right now.
2. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair... just take a picture.
3. Post that picture with NO editing.
4. Post these instruction with your picture.
5. Tag 5 people to do this.

I don't understand why this tag exist, maybe it's to show who edits their pictures and what not? Ah well.

I tag Cyke, Bebe, Joshie, Riphie, and Nis. I know some of you won't do it because you don't even know the existance of the blog! Nyahahaha! Jeez.

I am addicted to I Kissed A Girl by Katy Perry. It's really catchy even though it's some girl who kissed a girl and liked it although she has a boyfriend. Yeaaaah. YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEAN. Man, is it just me or are all the dirty songs becoming catchy? AFAHSLRANHRLFAHLR WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS?

Anyways DS games related, I just jammed Mystery Detective. I like the art; it's cute yet has this mysterious style to it. The characters did not feel like those "typical" people you know out there. At least they have a uniqueness about them. Mackenzie's outfit is niiiiice. Maybe I'll cosplay her one day? Haha. Her best friends are something as well; Cloe was there for the "What the hell?" occasions and it seems that most of the time the cases were revolved around Penelope. I wish the cases were longer. The only thing I have to do now is just fill up my Touch List (I have 11 left to go) et voila. I rate this game 8/10!

I also beat Princess Debut. It's a dating-sim game, I guess. You basically get a visit from a Princess from another world from your closet and you have to take her place do pick a partner to dance at a ball. It's like Elite Beat Agents really, just that you've got to get a partner and la-de-da~ Honestly, the dancing bit was tiring. You got to do it over and over and gah! What I also did not like about it was that once you have a partner, you can't change, so you got to choose wisely. I rate this game 5/10. Meh.

You know what saddens me? My Disgaea DS and Rhapsody A Musical Adventure can't properly save on my DS! Ughhhh, I never got to finish Disgaea on the PS2 and I want to just play Rhapsody all over again for nostalgic reasons (it was originally from the PS1). It's so very crueellll!

Oh oh! I changed my ringtone into the Steel Samurai Theme Song. Haha, what? It's funkyyy!

Ugh, I'm so tired. I've been trying to find a good online animation course. The university I might try apply for is Academy of Art University of San Francisco. I actually learned that Bobby Beck, one of the founders of Animation Mentor, went there before. He claims that, in his interview, that university did not help him "prepare" for the industry, was it? I can't recall, but he's heard that the university has changed. Well, I looked into the Almuni and it looks like students got to go to places such as Disney and Pixar. I'm still trying to find some really good ones. Art Institute of Pittsburgh looks promising too. I need some figure drawings though.

Oh yeah, I received my American High School Diploma yesterday. Woo! It's so pretty. I didn't even know graduation rings existed! Haha, not that I'm going to get one. I'm planning on just celebrating my graduation on my 18th birthday. For some reason, I feel so psyched to become 18 (which isn't even that near). Maybe because I finally get to do stuff like my animation course and be independent. Meep.

Oh yeah, who wants a free sketch? /smiles I'm allowing this for a week, so yeaaah. Go go go!

Chapter 83: The Piano Bag

2008-11-10T00:21:00.014Z

I finally got around to make Nodame's Piano Bag! Yaaaay! Took me two days to complete it even though I'm sick. Meeeeh. /cough

I've made a lot of mistakes though. Well, you can't blame me since this is my first bag. I sewed it all by myself. /crickets Yeaaaaah. I'll show you the progress I did. Haha.

Here's the rough draft and some small calculations of the measurements I did before I started working on it. Yes, I know it sucks, haha.

Stitch, stitch, stitch!

I'm so awesome that I can play it on my shoulders. Oh baby!

Keyboard bit of the bag is done. Woooo! Doesn't it match with my bed covers? Haha.

Hmmm, I think it'll look good as a scarf.

Meeeh, I wish I could post up more, but my internet has gone really gay now. So, this is all I can show. /sadface

So, this is a remember to myself:
- Buy some lining (linen? I don't know. Blech.)
- When starting off sewing, be sure to check whether or not the other side has enough space to sew for another piece of material.
- Sew the handles first before the zipper.
- Learn other sewing techniques.

PS: In case you're wondering what ever happened to my holiday pictures, man I just wish it was that easy as to tell you here's this and that, but jeez it's hard! I've tried posting the same video for more than 5 times and it keeps on failing on me. Urggggg.

PPS: If you're starting to think "Then how are you uploading these pictures?" Well, I changed the settings on my camera so it goes by 480x640 pixels so it was easier to upload them, but you can clearly see the quality sucks, but what can you do? Heh.

ANDDD BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP:

I so do that.

Chapter 82: My Dream Is Absolutely Superb!

2008-11-05T12:18:00.006Z

Last night, my mom and I went to the Mohammed Theatre (or whatever it's called) to watch a performance called "My Dream" put up by China Disabled People's Performing Art Troupe. If I'm not mistaken, these people performed in the Beijing Olympics this year too! (I wouldn't know since I didn't get to watch it. Aha..) From what I can remember, there were 22 with hearing impaired, 13 with visually impaired, and 2 physically disabled. Sadly I could not bring a camera, ah well.

It started out with a welcoming by a lady who displayed it with sign langange. The movement the lady showed had a good flow and was really darn beautiful. It was as if she was just dancing with her arms. I'd like to learn sign language really.

It was then followed by a poem by her as well.

There are always dreams,
and aspirations in our lives.
Let us enjoy every inch of sunlight,
at every moment.

There is always value in every life.
Even an injured tree can
provide a piece of shade.
And even a crippled flower can
send forth its full fragrance.
Life is an experience.
Let us deal with all of life's challenges
with a heart of happiness and gratitude.

My dear friends,
We experience light in darkness,
and sense sound and rhythm in silence.
We pursue perfection in imperfectness,
In a tilted yet beautiful world
we are purified, to soar higher and higher.

Today,
through special performances
we would like to tell you
the stories of yesterday,
life of today
and the colorful dreams of tomorrow.

Every dance you see
is the pulse of our hearts.
And every piece of music you hear
is a song flowing out of our veins.
Please follow us into “My Dream” .

The first dance we saw was called "Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva" by the hearing impaired.

This one reminded me of a peacock; the arms were like feathers. Haha, I really liked when they were able to switch from one side to another and then swiftly make the illusion of the peacock displaying her feathers. God, and they're really good at making it seem like it's one person. I didn't even know there were guys behind her!

After that dance was done, a pretty lady in a wheel chair came up on stage to sing "The Code of Life." For some reason, she reminded me of Auntie Souhad. Haha, anyways her voice was prettyyy. Oh yeah! She's actually the first disabled person to graduate the Art University in China. I can't remember the name of the university, but just wow!

Next, was a dance called "To See Spring" by the visually impaired.

Can you freaking believe it? These people can only see darkness and they can dance? Aren't they just amazing?! Gaaaah. I just adore their costumes. Rainbow colourssss, ooooh! I liked when they were all posing freely. It brought me back to days when I used to go to Hyde Park with either my family or classmates. Good times!

After that, was actually "The Soul of a Peacock." by a hearing impaired lady.

Ahhh, I love her costume! There was one part when she holds up one side of her dress and spins around, the edges of the dress turns blue-ish purple, so it gives the illusion of spinning really fast. I liked the way she danced as well. Quite flexible. The way she makes her hand look like the head of the peacock. Haha, it's adorable bah.

The next performance was by Yang Haitao, who is visually impaired, to sing "When a Child is Born", a song about a girl whom he loves, and apparently, a Moroccan song! Haha, that took us all by surprise.

God, I love just Yang Haitao's voice. Very powerful. When he sang in English and Arabic, that just blew me away. His voice does not hold any Chinese accents; it was as if sung by an American and/or Arabic. Not that I was trying to be offensive that people cannot do that, but it was really amazing. Eeeee. You know, when he started speaking of his life in darkness, it made me cry. It's really sad. I'm just happy all these people are able to do something with their lives. Seriously.

After tears were shed, there was a band performance by the visually impaired. (Sorry, can't find any pictures of it.) The saxophone guy lost his eyesight at the age of 14 by accident. To be honest, he didn't look Chinese, but maybe that's due to his wavy hair, but man he's cute! Haha. I know all three songs he was playing (though I don't know their names blegh), so I was enjoying it a lot.

The next one was the "Green Seedlings" done by the hearing impaired and by Huang Yangguang, who is a physically disabled.

He lost his arms due to an electric shock at the age of five, so in order for him to take care of himself, he uses his feet to knit, grow fruit trees, paint, and now, dancing!

I really liked this performance. The dance and everything was adorable! The hats were uberly (is that a word?) huge! I want a hat like that. /sadface Haha. Sometimes, Huang would sit down, take a towel and wipe his face; I thought that kind of pauses are really nice. It shows he's working hard on the farm to grow his trees.

After that, was.. I believe it was song called "Don't Cry For Me, Argentina" was sung by a visually impaired lady. Seriously, these singers have amazing voices! Just.. wow!

She then joined with the others to play "Local Traditions and Cultures." Jeez, these guys are simply amazing! God I love you guys, haha.

The "Fairy Butterfly" was after that. It is based on a Chinese legend about the tragic romance between a pair of star-crossed young people. There were three chapters from this performance.

I like the idea of making glowing gloves and forming them into butterflies are pretty.

But this was really something! Just how the heck did they get those butterflies in the background to glow against the the curtains? HOW?!

The next performance was a wowzer, if you think about it. Made me laugh too! It is called "At the Crossroad". This was done by both the visually impaired and the hearing impaired people. The visually impaired people were playing the instruments while three hearing impaired people acted out the scene.

The people performing are so synced together! When the music was playing quickly, the hearing impaired people acting got quick on their feet as well! Dude, just how cool is that?!

My Dream was coming to an end. The singers actually got to sing "Phantom of the Opera" (which I so need to download) and "We Are The World." I sang along with the last song. Haha. Man.

Every life deserves respect and dignity.
Every life is precious beyond measure.
As Heaven's movement is ever vigorous, so must a gentleman ceaselessly strive along.
However disadvantageous the environment is, a gentleman must hold the world with virtue.
Enjoying the salubrious sunshine and spring breezes, we are looking forward to a future of joy and hope.

I simply love the idea of this show. You shouldn't treat disabled people as if they have nothing else to do in life, but show them a new light so they can enjoy life and can amaze us! It would simply be amazing if every country did this. It really would make it a better world.

If they ever come down to your country to give you a show, I definitely recommend it! You should check here for more information!

By the way, internet has been bad due to windy weather here, but finally got my USB internet adapter working, so that's a plus. Pictures and videos are still hard to upload, I think it's because they're all so huge! Plus, I'm not sure if this internet adapter can handle it. The last time I tried uploading pictures through this, I had to upload ONE by ONE. Gaaah.

Oh! Have a look at thisss.

CHIAAAAKIIIII~~~

Yessss, I managed to pull off a Noda Megumi from Nodame Cantabile! Well, I guess it could work, right? Haha.

Man, I'm awesome. Lol wth. Laters!

Chapter 81: Let's Rewind, Shall We?

2008-10-31T15:55:00.015Z

First of all:

I hate it when Blogger does that to me, but I guess it's better than having it in Arabic. That was totally confuzzling.

Second of all, Happy Halloween and Happy Belated Birthday to Foxie. I think.. you're 21 this year? Yaaaay!

I was actually invited to a Halloween party, but I had to decline. Meep. But but uh, I can show you this!

Yeaaaah, I'm jobless; today was freaking windy though. Gah. Oh! I did my first bellydancing class today with the Indonesian aunties and my mommy. Haha, it's funky.

Anyways, I found a way to upload pictures and videos, so I'll be updating 4 days for each post until the end ~~of time~~ of my holiday in Brunei. So here we go!

[13th & 14th of September: Casablanca to Doha to KL.]
Today is the day! Let's get going to Bruneiii!

Zaza waiting sleepily to leave Morocco.

Our ride to the airport. I took the backseat which we all know is comfy to lie down. Nyahaha!

We were given so called "VIP treatment" from Casablanca to Doha by the people of Diplomatica again. Uhm, yeaaah.

I'm more VIPer than you are. I've got two tags. /grins

These were the trolly~~boy~~men. Yeaaah, they were definitely helping us so they can get their ka-ching.

There's a new extension building at the Casablanca airport and we finally got to go through it. It didn't feel like we were in Morocco anymore!

We're in Dohaaaaa! ...As left in my PM on MSN that day. I actually forgot to charge my camera before leaving Morocco, so I had to buy new batteries in Doha. Yeaaah. Look Zaza's playing the DS. GIMMIE!

I hate my spectacles. Gurrr.

We changed our seats since it was almost time to leave. Here's Mama and Auntie Ma!

Don't forget Daaad!

And all of us too!

Just keep smiling! Just keep smiling, smiling, smiling. What do we do? We smile, smile.

Look how uber fat I ammm!

Say "Nyeeeeeeee." Haha, got you smiling too!

Hmm, let's see... Kuala Lumpur. Go to Gate 7 eh?

Woooo, found it! ...Oh crap, what a line! This may take a while.

We're in KL now! KLIA's LRT to be exact.

Ahh! A hand!

Malaysiaaaaa, it's truly Asiaaaa! /breaks into the freaking long commercial

EHHHH OKAY I'LL UPDATE IT TOMORROW. Connection is pretty bad due to the windy weather today.

Laters!

Chapter 80: Back to Back

2008-10-27T10:09:00.005Z

To back to back to back to back. Apakan?

I got back from ~~Tripoli~~ Brunei four days ago. I've been sleeping and waking up way too early. Woohoo for jet lag!

Sadly, my laptop still can't detect the wireless. However, when it does, it only works two times and then disappears. The wireless USB adapter is also useless, but dad says it's because he hasn't put in credit in it yet. Nyeh. So, no pictures or videos until further notice. Please forgive me.

Did I mention I got a DS Lite? Yesssss, I do! I'm uber happy. Wheeeee. I wish I got another pouch for it though. Ah well. I'm almost finished with "Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney". Uh, I'm doing Rise of the Ashes; kind of stuck. Meep. On "Apollo Justice: Ace Attorney", I think I'm on the 4th episode. I can't remember much, might have to check up on that, but I'm loving the series! There was this one line, though ridiculous, which Larry Butz said which made me laugh out loud. God, why won't people draw more of the kid version of Phoenix, Edgy, and Larry? Cuuuuute! ...Or maybe spoiler kali? Hmmm.

Y'know, I do want to cosplay. I actually bought wigs the other day. There are a short blonde-ish brown, a black long curly one, and the last one is just a long hair clip-on extension which has almost the same similar hair colour as mine (but abit lighter). Teehee. Meh, they were quite expensive except for the first one I bought, but what can you do?

I'm trying to think what I can cosplay as with those kind of wigs. Suggestions please? Hmm, that reminds me; I'm almost finishing my Nodame costume. I just need a dress and probably the shoes aaand tada! I'm excited. Woo?

Oh, oh, I thought of a character which I will be able to cosplay. Teehee. /goes with the flow. Haha. God, I love the idea of this character. She's funky.

God, I can't wait to upload those pictures, but it'll have to wait, I suppose.

Anyways, I better go. I hope my next post won't be a disappointment (yet again). Byeee!

Chapter 79: After Five Years..

2008-10-01T09:54:00.002Z

We get to celebrate Hari Raya in Brunei! Woooo. Sure I'm not really all that happy at the moment because I'm just wiped out, but maybe I haven't gotten in the Raya spirit yet. I hope it will be a good one after missing out five years of ~~free munnies~~ ~~getting fatter~~ celebrating Raya for more than a day or two. So, I would like to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya or Eid Mubarak!

I've definitely done most of my shopping. My money has gone ka-poof! Eh, not my fault Morocco doesn't have all the stuff I need. Blech. Mom commented, "You're the only one spending all your money!" Well, I'm sorry, but I do have friends to buy stuff for as well. Nyeh, and she's the one telling us before us leaving Morocco, "Buy whatever you want lah, it's your money." Meeep.

Oh, isn't this sexy?

Ohhh baby. Wink wink. I totally support you all the way, Sar!

Been out and about. Going jalan here and there. Blisters appearing and disappearing. Lol wth. I don't really know what else to say.

Oh! I came across Aimi and Iffah the other day at Tegguh Raya. Gaaaah, Aimi looks totally different. God, I could not recognize her. Is.. hot the right word? Naaah, I think people will think I'm fagilicious.

Anyways, sungkai is in a few minutes. Gotta run! Laters and enjoy Raya everyone!

Chapter 78: The 3 Kuburs.

2008-09-27T04:53:00.003Z

Once upon a time, there was a girl who was a jubur. The end.

Yes, that is the story of my life. Fascinating, isn't it?

Anyways, this week went by quickly. I was hoping to meet most of my friends this week, but sigh. Payah kan hook up since Raya is around the corner. That reminds me, next Sunday I'm going to have open house. Anyone interested in coming, let me know so I can give you my address lol. Uh, in case no one knows yet, but I have a phoneline I'm borrowing from Kaka Nisa, so if you want to give me a ring, uhm.. ask me? Haha.

Oh, I still can't update you with pictures because I'm not currently on my laptop (I'm on Kaka Ya's laptop ehe), so Sar updated her blog with some of the pictures thus far. We're so awesomeee. Just check it out!

My family and I got to visit three cemetaries (sp?) of our relatives. It was pretty darn tiring, but it was worth the visit since I never got to visit my late grandmother, Uncle Shah, and Auntie Biah's graves. Their graves were pretty. I even got to see one of my cousin's grave as well. He was only a few months younger than me. I wonder if I would have gotten along with him? Mmm, got to visit Nini Bukit's grave as usual. I miss his presence eventhough I never really hungout much at Bukit. A really great man.

Speaking of this, I can't help but feel... nyeh. I don't think I'm trying my best to talk to my cousins, but it's hard to approach. I don't know what to say bah. Haha. So uh, I'm sorry. I'm a terrible cousin. I still like my "comfort zone".

Uhm, let's see. The container has been sent a few days ago, so I can't go off doing a lot of shopping spreeing. I just remembered I wanted to buy fabrics to bring back, but I was too late. Nooooooo. Darn my memory! Eh, well at least the things to come are not too heavy to bring with me. Eee, I can't wait for my DS Lite!

Anyways, I need to shower. I woke up seconds before I received a message from Syirah. Haha. Man, it's happening again. I think I still have that whole bluetooth thing going 'round me.

Take care and see you later, you bums!

Chapter 77: Foxie's Farewell

2008-09-23T05:38:00.005Z

Eh, I just realized the beginning of my previous post was cut off, but I can't be bothered to fix it, so hah!

I thought I would be able to get connection from time to time, but my laptop's network thing screwed up. Dad has been trying to fix it, but so far, he's failing. He said that my network got deleted or something. I've tried system restoring it one day before leaving to Brunei, but it still does not work. Help?

Just to update the day I'll be leaving Brunei; it will be on the 14th of October. We will be staying in KL for three days and arriving Morocco on the 17th. It's annoying to find out it's not even a month we'll be staying here, but ah well. Sigh.

I gave a surprise visit to the airport to send Foxie off last night (so I wanted to make it seem like that). Haha. I got to meet Foxie (duh), Rai, Niza, Zee (aka Lid), and Fishie. Rai has gone slim. Whaa, I really hope he doesn't plan on losing more weight. It was actually my first time meeting Niza. She's alright; it seemed like she didn't want to talk to us at first, but welcomed us soon after. Zeeee, I felt like you were trying to ignore me. Broke my heart. /saaaad Lol wth. I recall you were much taller. And and ahhh, Fishie looks totally... manly. Haha. He's got musclesss. Cute though. Wheee. Guys, thanks for the Escapade; eventhough, Sar and I were totally in a rush to get out there ASAP. I didn't get into trouble, so yay me! I hope we plan to meet soon again!

It turns out as well that I got to meet Fin last night as well. We were basically tired, so meeeh. It was nice to see him again. Haha. Damn you for remembering us to play Tekken. Grrrr.

Speaking of last night, I managed to learn how to make a spiral bracelet. It's not too complicated what. I knew it was similar to making soviet rings and/or those flower bead things, except the beeds were a lot tiny. It's all good though.

I got to meet Misha, Kaka Ya's little sister two nights ago. She's so adorable! She was pretty shy at first, but slowly showed her playful side. Eeee, it's adorable she likes Happy Feet and Tellytubbies; she does all these little actions they do those shows like stomping her feet and/or pushing her tummy outwards. Makes you go "Awww!"

I have yet to meet Cowboy, the youngest cousin on my mom's side, so probably will see him during Raya. I heard he's pretty darn heavy and my grandmother compared him to me when I was a baby. I was also told that I was so heavy that it made her arms numb from carrying me. Haha, man I must've been such a fat, chubby baby.

Ahhh, I forgot to mention that I got to hungout with Onichan on Sunday to go shopping. Wheeee. Basically we went to Yayasan, The Mall, Q-Lap Mall, and Hua Ho Manggis. I had to get most of my shopping done so I can bring them into the container. I feel kind of bad for making him a driver and ~~servant~~ someone who wanted to carry my stuff. Lol, but thanks a bunch. Teehee, stealing rides are fun.

I hope my connection doesn't fail on me and let this post go through. Oh yeah and happy belated birthday to Wasilah! /smiles I hope you enjoyed it!

Chapter 76: Malay Influenced Kali

2008-09-18T18:36:00.002Z

Bonne nuit, mon amis!

I have arrived Brunei four days ago and is already used to the timezone, but still sleeping late apparently. Lmao. I'm probably sure my family is going to wake up for sahur soon.

Anyways, it's been busy. The day I arrived, cousins came by to the house with no electricity--what a warm welcome--then the current came back after probably 15 minutes later. After everyone left, I sungkai with family. Macam sama jua sungkai di Morocco ani, haha. How sad. Kaka Ya, Uncle

The second day Sar and Cuboi dropped by the house early in the morning, awakening me from my slumber. We got invited by Azzah's parents to sungkai at... Aneka Rasa or something like that lmao. We returned home then was told to go to Bukit. Sar and I actually fell asleep before leaving the house, which was why we were pretty sleepy when we got there, but it was all good.

Yesterday we stopped by at Mabohai for a while. Met a sleepy Onichan and a bunch of ~~farm animals~~ kitties, bunnies, and turtles! Don't worry, we booked some cats haha. We left off to Yayasan since we heard the Mall was packed, but as long as I got the stuff I wanted, I was happy enough--which I did! I managed to buy the Laptop vacuum cleaner, ear phones, and a Disney mp3 player! Yessss, and I got it for $35! Eeee, so happy! Finally got the mp3 that I wanted. Got matching ear phones too, but the sticker on it didn't last long, and I'm kind of annoyed by that. I even used my super glue on it, but it made the cover a bit sticky looking though. Blech. It's a pity they only sell blue, pink, black, and silver. If they had green or white, I would have been really satisfied, but it's okay. If I'm happy, nothing else matters. Teehee. Oh! Dad bought me a new fancooler, so that's off my list too. I bought pencils and sketchbooks as well, so wheee.

Things I need to buy now are:

RAMs
New clothes (Mainly to go jalan and all that sort)
Vests/Bras (What? They're expensive in Morocco!)
Shorts (Apparently I'm staring in my closet and there isn't any there. /sadface)
Comfy headphones
Perhaps another jar of caviar. Mmmm.
Gift for Yasmina
Gift for Miss. Hanane
ETCCCC

Anyways, after Yayasan, we rested at home and then mom tells me and Sar to ikut jalan to the Stadium. I'm not sure why she was very eager to bring me along to see it, I remember doing something like this when we were living in KL, but whatever. After buying food we buka puasa in Muara. Harira. Mmmm. We heard that Kaka Ya was down, so we went to pay her a visit over at Giant. My first time going there. It's pretty huge; it's almost the same size as Marjane, but of course, way bigger. It was fun. Perhaps I'll join the Photography Competition or something. Way to gooo. That reminds me! My camera's viewing thingy majig is screwed up. It's all blurry! Weird thing is that when I take the picture, it isn't blurry and when I view it through the mini screen, it looks fine, so I don't get what's the deal. Urg. Whatever. May need to ask my dad to fix that up.

I'm trying to socialize more now. I'm tired of feeling very awkward around my relatives on my dad's side. I just get the feeling it's going to get harder, so might as well do it now, right?

Anyways, I better go. If I don't Sahur now, I won't get enough nutrition in my body since I'm not fasting and it's as if I AM fasting, so meh.

PS: Did anyone notice I started speaking a bit Malay here and there? Ugh, this happens all the time I return to Brunei. Haha.

Laters!

Chapter 75: Twillight Insight

2008-09-12T00:52:00.005Z

Last night we went shopping at the medina. Like, real shopping. God, I felt like a spoiled rich brat. I'm glad I got comfortable sandals and funky shoes though. Can't help thanking my dad. Thank youuuu. Wheee.

Went out with the new Bruneian family to Mega Mall an hour ago. I got to know Rayma more. She's pretty awesome to be around with. We have quite a handful of things in common. It's going to be nice having someone like her around.

One day left before we return to Brunei. Kami sudah angan-angan sini ah. Just of the little things and we're already saying, "This reminds me of Brunei." Sigh. Out of habit, I suppose. From what I know about our flight schedule, we're leaving Casablanca early in the morning (probably around 7am. Gotta go check with my parents again lol) and arriving Doha around 8pm. We would leave around 1am and reach Malaysia by 1pm-ish. Stay two nights there and leave to go to Brunei at.. 3pm. So we'll be in Brunei an hour before sungkai. Isn't that lovely? Haha.

Ugh, I seriously need to make an upgrade to my laptop. Too slow man. I'm trying to work on After Effects and just previewing the file itself it very slow. Blech. Help me.

So, so, I guess I'll be giving Animation Mentor a try. I think my parents said I'll try to apply once I'm back in Morocco. I hope I get accepted into the course. I've heard nothing, but great things about this course. Please, God, let me pass and follow this path. I really wish to be an animator. I can't really imagine myself doing something else, though I'm sure there is, but not as a career. Sigh.

Heyyy, no one told me Twillight had anything to do with vampires! Lmao. I think I'm going to need to watch that movie.

Ahhh! Crunchyroll pisses me off sometimes. They removed We Got Married because it got lisenced. Jeez, I was just about to continue where I left off watching it. Sighhh. At least now I know that I can watch Beauty and the Geek online, but my connection sucks so it keeps holding a halt, so meh.

I wish this post has something for you guys to stare at other than text, but yeaaah. This might be my last post before I leave, so I wish everyone the best, take care, and I'll be seeing you guys in Brunei! Teehee.

Chapter 74: New Boss Appears!

2008-09-09T22:52:00.003Z

I'm feeling a lot better today. Yaaay.

I was experimenting something today, and it works! I'll show you what I mean the next time I decide to upload a video. Speaking of uploading, my connection still isn't good enough to upload multiple files and I'm not going to upload a file one by one. Grr.

Anyways, my parents invited the new Charge De Affair or whatever. They look like pretty interesting family. They brought their niece and she seems pretty nice. She looks pretty familiar though. Hrmmm. Ah well, probably our imagination. She's five years older than me. Wooooo. Uhm, yeaah. Apparently I found out the auntie is related to one of my aunts. Dun dun dunnn.

I'm annoyed by the TV. Most of the channels won't work and it's making me sad. My siblings, mom and I were in the middle of watching the finals of The Beauty and the Geek, and the signal just disappeared. Gaaaaah. Pourquoi?!?! I really hope it starts working tomorrow. Boohoo.

Oh yes, four days left. Not pretty psyched, but what to do? My luggage looks pretty full. Hurrah. I think the only thing I'm pretty excited is just getting things I really need, lmao.

Well would you look at the time. It's an hour before sungkai. I better sleep. Goodnight!

Chapter 73: Blue-Green Ending

2008-09-07T15:52:00.003Z

It was nice while it lasted. Thank you.

Chapter 72: Picture Imperfect

2008-09-06T23:17:00.008Z

Yaaay, finally got the internet nicely working in my room! ...Well, I have to use a USB modem thingy-majig though. Meeeh. As long as it works, it's all good!

First of all, I would like to announce that I will be heading to Brunei on the 13th of September and arriving on the 16th. I'll only have one full day in KL, so Bebe, you better be at Kinokuniya! /sternface Haha. We'll be on Qatar Airways, again. Ugh. What I don't like about this airway is that it delayed at all of our flights except when we arrived in Casablanca from Doha--meaning our flight returning to Morocco. God that was annoying. Anyways, I haven't really packed yet apart from my clothes. I don't really have much to bring. Meeeh, which is a good thing though. I have a lot to bring back. Teehee!

Look what I sew for Zaza! ....Or not. It's a cosy-star iPod thingy majig. Based on this, but much simpler and crappily sewn. I'll try upload pictures next time. I guess connection still does not work well to upload pictures.

Oh, I came across some old pictures a few days ago. I'll try upload some here and there. It just takes too long to upload these pictures. Sighhh. Problem, problem, problem.

Mmmmkay. I better get going then. Niiiight!

Chapter 71: Ramadan Moubarak and Excessively Overwhelmed

2008-09-02T15:17:00.002Z

To all my muslim friends, happy starving and dehydrating! Am I the only one that thinks that it's already that time of year? Boy, time goes by quickly.

Another thing I would like to mention is that Zaza is now nine years old! Yay you! I apologize (IT'S TOO LATE TO APOLOGIZEEEE) Haha what the- shush. Uhm, I apologize (to her) for not her drawing anything. I actually drew her something, but the program died on me. Pourquoi?! Anyways, we had good lunch out at TGI Fridays yesterday, so yay.

Okayyy, so I went to EMPCI earlier today to get my study guides for Physical Science and Algebra 1. I got a D for my Pre-Algebra. Well, better than receiving an F again, right? So, I'll be taking the assignments this Friday. Woooo.

Oh oh and I got my transcript for my Undergraduate Management course. Eeee, you won't believe it, but I got A's in all the subjects! I'm so pleased! ENG101, ENG102, PSY 101, SOC 101, and BUS 300. Wheeee, happy happy! To top it up, there is a chance I will be taking an freaking ANIMATION COURSE. AHHHHHHH. I am grinning from ear to ear. Finally, a turning point for me! God heard my prayers. Thank you so much. Really, thank you. Now, my part of the bargain is to do my best! ... and wait until next year so I can enroll in it. Rawr, rawr, rawr.

Well, I gotta go run around the house screaming "Wheee!" Okay? Bye!

Chapter 70: Moved and House-Warmed

2008-08-31T00:19:00.006+01:00

Aaaah! Hey guys! Finally moved into the new house and got the internet working--terribly-- inside my room after a week. Has it really been a week? Wow.

First of all I wanted to say, HOPE YOU HAVE A NICE FLIGHT, DEE! I'm sure school over there will be freaking awesome. I still wish we could've met before you left, but yeaaah. /sadface

Secondly, happy (belated) 4 months to usss. Wheeeee. I just kind of realized what the date was today. Meeeh. Missing you, Benjiiiii.

Okaaay, now let's get on topic. The new house is all awesome and stuff. Very tiring though. God! Nothing but unpacking and arranging/taking out stuff we need. I finally got a hold of my clothes last night. You have no idea how annoying it was to see that the clothes were piling up near the bathroom. Gah! That reminds me, our toilet smells like the beach: salty. Bleh, but it's all good now with the air freshener.

Speaking of toilets, on the first night sleeping in the new house, I had to shower with freaking ice-cold water. The freazing cold night wasn't helping either. Brrr, so cold it made my knees weak to even sleep properly--literally. Uhmmmm. Yeaaah.

I finally have my own room, again! After in the previous house I had to share it with my maid and they (the old and new maid) kind of took control of it, so no privacy. God, it feels great to have my own room and a balcony too! ...and a TV. Ehee. Animal planetttt, oh baby. Lol wth. I even have an aircon, which I have no clue in how to make it work, apart from my parents room. Even though I have finally gotten my own room, today I finally earned a bed to sleep on. Where have I been sleeping this week? In the living room with two of my siblings. Wheeee.

I'm going to try keep this short since my batteries are about to die and if I move my laptop, the connection is going to die too. Soooo, we had a house warming today. Family didn't want it, but friends wanted us to host one sooo we did. Got to meet Mike and Ismail after a month and a half of not seeing each other. Met new kids as well. The guy really reminded me of Arif: the way he dressed, the way he had his earplugs in listening on whatever, and perhaps his voice. The only thing that differs him from Arif was the hair. Oh wow, talk about speaking of the devil. Arif just MSNed me. Gwahhh okay.

EDITED:

Finally got to put in some pictures from the move-in and a bit from the house-warming to my computer, so here it is!

Laters!

Chapter 69: Sexy Time Boxes, Boxes, Boxes

2008-08-24T00:16:00.003+01:00

They're everywhere! Gwahhhhh.

Er, well, I'll be moving to my new house tomorrow or technically today. Ahaha. Fuuuun. I gotta draw the map for my parents, but I'll be doing that tomorrow (morning?) since I won't be doing much apart from playing games on my laptop. Additional to that, there will be no connection there until my dad hooks it up, which will probably take a while. I'm sure none of you care since I haven't been in contact with anyone lately unless they talk to me on Skype, haha.

What else, what else. Hrmmmm. Trying to get motivated to draw, but nothing comes out right, again. Bleh. I am still working on "Bubble Blues." I really wish I could get it done before I return to Brunei.

Oh yeah, I just finished watching Trinity Blood. I don't like most of the English VAs since they sound so irritating, or is that how anime nowadays are like? Uhm, yeaah. It's an okay anime; I found names confusing most of the time since they were uber long and/or hard to remember. The story was interesting. I like the idea that they could be another prey that could be more advance than a Methusala (sp?). If vampires and humans could live in peace... Wow, that would be sexy. Haha what the hell.

I guess I should head off to sleep then. I'll be on hiatus for a while then.

Au revoir and take care of yourselves.

Eats you up. AHAHAHA, jeez. I'm always trying to find a way to insult my readers--if you can even call it that. I'm lame. Wheeee.

Chapter 68: Post-Awareness

2008-08-22T18:58:00.003+01:00

Have you ever looked back at what you wrote or said a few minutes and thought, "Now that I think about it..." and come up with other ideas that you should have mentioned instead? Eeeh, yeaaaah.

This is why I don't really like ranting. I sound so stupid, lmao.

I was just thinking of all those events I'll have to attend to if I do go to Brunei. When I was having a snack earlier, I thought of why I really wanted to leave this country. I guess like what I noted in my previous post: I wanted to start fresh again, and it then clicked.

I would have been okay if we stayed in Morocco for three years since that was usually how long my family and I would stay in a country then move to another, but extending our stay here makes life dull. Where's the excitement? I used to hate the idea of travelling to another country and leaving my friends behind, but in the end, it doesn't matter. It happens all over the places; whether you're still staying in the same town for your entire life or whether you meet friends online, it is bound to happen. Anyways, a bit off-topic there. I'm just wishing to start everything all over again--where ever I may end up be.

Perhaps it's because I'm used to it and want to re-live it again. I think if I studied in Brunei, I'd probably get tired of it after (or before) 3 years too! Damn, I am such a normad. Ahaha, jubur.

I think I should really live in the Sahara desert or something--only during the night though! That reminds me, what ever happened to that field trip anyways? Eh, whatever.

OH OH, guess what? I was filing up my report cards and medical papers (of my entire life) the other day and I came across this paper which had to do with Language and Speech Therapy when I was four years old. It seems that when I was in pre-school, I had a moderate-severe language disorder. Is this a bad sign or something? Moderate and severe together? Does that mean I'm okay, but not really okay? Haha. I don't know if I should be worrying about this since it was when I first started out school. Are some children like that when they were younger or is it just me? I did find this description on the paper quite humourous though:

She laughed to herself on a number of occasions and wanted to play with the test materials.

I'm still like that apart from the whole playing with the test materials though. Jeez, I have been a weirdo since that day! Well, nothing is normal anyways, so nyeh. Go me!

Eeeeh, something has been on my mind and it's my plastic bag full of fabrics. You might go "Wtf? Why would you be thinking of that?" Thing is that I want to stitch up a tote piano bag just like Nodame's one as well as I want to make a teddy bear, but it's gone after we had the house cleaned up by a weekly-hired maid. I have been trying to look for it all over the place and can't be found in sight. Why do I feel like I need to assume that the maid took it while I was out of school? If no one finds it after we leave this house, my poor fabrics will be going to waste! What a waste of good money too. Sighhhh. I really want it, so I don't have to go fabric hunting again even though I do need to. Meep. So sad, so sad.

ANYWAYS, bottom line is-- you smell.

THE END.

Chapter 67: Let's Get A Move On

2008-08-21T23:12:00.004+01:00

Because all these dusts are all over me.

Yes, I know that does not make any sense at all.

Yes, that was retarded.

Yes, you are retarded. Oui? Ouiii? Wiiii? Weeee? Peee? Apakan.

Anyways, I thought we would have moved by now, but the movers are coming over on er, Monday to collect our things. I'm glad we haven't though, we still got a hell a lot of packing to do. I am dreading every time I exit my room every morning; although, it is also my fault for not giving 100% for packing. Jeez, I am a lazy bum.

Mr. Meher finally got in contact with me to discuss about the whole assignment situation and other things too. My mom and I went to the school to see him and bla de bla bla. He thought I would have completed all my assignments by now, but eh. Mr. Nawfel was supposed to tell me a month ago when I could sit down and take them, but he hasn't called since and other students have been having a hard time contacting him too. Good news I learned is that I have already received my results for the the four assignments I took which I got D's in: Bussiness Maths - D (Again, lmao), Ecology - C, Earth and Space Science - C, and Art Criticism and Appreciation - B. I'm really happy the grades didn't go down now, especially Art C&A since, y'know it's related what I want to do in the future. Mr. Meher sent in the last assignment I took (Pre-Algebra) when he got back so, heh.

I really wish the Director could at least sent that paper to America, request for the final two assignments, and hand me my Management course transcript rather than wasting my time. I don't see why he couldn't have just requested all three papers at once like what Mr. did with my previous four assignments. If he really cared about his students, why couldn't he do something so simple? I wouldn't be struggling so much with where I can go to study with just this little detail. Ugh. Fortunately, Mr. was able to get my transcript done before he left for the holidays since I told him in advance I will be leaving Morocco soon. So, thanks a bunch to him! Wheee.

Now, I'm stuck in a rut again. I don't really want to say anything just yet since it's still messed up. All I know is that if my mom's plan will succeed: 1) I will be freaking happy to take up the opportunity 2) I'll still feel.. locked up.

To be honest, the reasons why I really want to study in Brunei are:

I don't have to deal with the whole language problem. Well, probably I still do, but not as bad as living here in Morocco. A minority of people speak English (though I noticed there has been an increase in certain places, so that's a good sign) and basically everyone speaks Arabic and French. Sure, I can understand bits of French here and there, and can read signs and crap, but I don't speak fluently. Arabic? Oh boy, it's like, wtf do you want from me? Haha.
What about education you say? Of course! I noticed a lot of students going overseas to study but going back? I get the feeling you're thinking like, "Why not go to UK instead?" or something similar. The answer is that it's too much of a hassle under such a small period of time. I know I'm not smart enough to get good results to get a scholarship and arranging the whole thing is.. bleh. Anyways, I got sidetracked. I just don't want to be surrounded by people who aren't motivated to work. Imagine going to college every day with it being completely empty and/or with a usual of three students attending regularly everyday. I was sick of it.
Erhm, I guess my social life. I'm pretty much anti-social now due to reason #1 and not having a lot of friends. I used to have friends who were pretty much international, haha, but they left. /smiles sweetly. Now, I just don't like the thought of mixing with other people who I just don't know. Whenever I try my best to make friends, they either just dust me off or make a fool out of me, I suppose. I can't argue that I enjoy staying at home though, it's relaxing. Call me an internet freak, but staring in front of the monitor feels like watching TV, but you can actually get what you want and/or need by interacting with it. It's not like I've been on MSN anyways. Like I can be bothered, Heh. I don't really want to show myself in this negative way, but you know, it's just more comfortable.
Related to the reason above. Well, it's not really a reason, but I just want to clear this out. I am not doing this for the sake of enjoying myself and being away from the family. I just really want to feel independent. Prove to my parents that I am willing to try my best to do things on my own and not rely on them or anyone else. Wow, I'm already teary, haha. If I was doing this for the benefit of just wanting to hangout with my friends and close cousins, why would I agree to go to a college which I know none of except of a few of my cousins which I'm not as close to? It's kind of like starting everything fresh again; it's like what I always do every time we were sent to another country. Sigh.

All in all, I just want to enjoy being a teen and not regret it at all when I look back at it. Can't I at least have that?

In other news, I figured out how to make Sims 2 custom contents work on my The Sims Life Stories! I've been downloading since, haha. At least it gives me something to do if the internet isn't working, right? Lmao.

Oh, just a reminder to myself: UPLOAD VIDEOS OF THE NEW HOUSE AND BLASDUAFHAJRBENJIILUHWH.

Thank you. That is all.

Chapter 66: Lunar Eclipse

2008-08-17T21:51:00.011+01:00

So uh, I'll be moving to the new house in three days. Damn, time passes by so quickly. Gurrr, why do I feel like I haven't done any packing yet?

What have I been doing lately computer-wise? Well...

Upgraded my desktop. I couldn't change or did not have sketchy icons for the programs above, so nyeh. I finally found a way to upgrade my Login screen and the theme of my desktop. Yahoo! Only problem now is that I want to change all the folders and files automatically, but I just don't know how on Vista. Help?

Moreover, I've been playing games such as Theme Hospital, Phantasy Star Online, and Klonoa. I think I'm being game nostalgic? Er, does that sentence sound okay? Haha.

I was trying out this "Beautiful Eye" tutorial on Deviantart, but I forgot the link. Gurrr. Did not turn out as well as I hoped it would, oh well!

Another go on photoshopping my eye. Pssst, did anyone noticed I have freckles? Haha.

Okay, this is not "new" news, but I think it would be unfair to hide this away from my blog. These are the characters I'm animating in my animation short called "Bubble Blues." I have already planned out the whole thing, now I'm just rough drafting it. I really hope I can complete this animation. Gurrrr.

I remember when my silly rainbow-blinking eyes avatar would always capture someone's attention on Deviantart. Ah, 2005, good times. Anyways, I wanted to redo it and not just have my avatar just blinking, but more like acting towards whatever colour she blinks. This is just a rough draft and looking choppy, but meh. I'm not sure if I'll be finishing it. Haha.

Also, I guess it's confirmed I'll be studying in Brunei? Ahaha. I don't really want to give the details just yet because I still get a funny feeling it might not be true, but my parents are showing signs that I will not be staying with them. Hrmmm, we shall see.

Oh yeah, I think we had a lunar eclipse last night. I only took some (ugly) pictures of it before it though.

Okaay, here are some pictures I took these past few days for your pleasure! You know, I would post up videos I have, but it would take too long. Bleh, anyways:

I'm tired so that's all I'm going to post for now.

And and Benji is going to Italy tomorrow. Boohoo. Take care and have a safe flight. I'll pray for you!

Chapter 65: Sleeping Early...

2008-08-13T01:53:00.001+01:00

Makes me remember my dreams. I don't just recall a dream once a week or so, I mean I remember dreams continuously these past few days.

Most of them are related to where I'll be studying and/or moving into new houses.

Last night I dreamt about going to a school which was near to a carnival place and it was kind of.. creepy, although I met some of my former classmates there such as Thomas. I think it wasn't just a high school, so bleh. The area felt really unsafe.

The night before I dreamt of going on a school trip with some new students apart from Nemanja and oddly enough, Zaza was there too? Anyways, I was treated harshly by the girls (felt like UIS all over again now that I think about it) and at one point, I needed to change, but all the toilet was lock or something like that. I went off to find another place just wearing a towel. Haha, how embarrassing. Anyways, I came across Nemanja and Diana. She started yelling "What the f*ck is wrong with you?! Why are you naked?" and I told her the situation. Her reaction was, "At least don't walk around like that, I'm naked too!" and all of a sudden she uh, stripped or something and I turned away because, wtf I'm not lesbo. Haha. So so uhm, I went back into the place and saw the girls. The leader was like, "What? Does it look like we invited you? Get lost." I think I did some weird speech and found a room to change. It was all quiet so I went to check the other room, and the girl was like "Hmm? Oh yeah, I'm the b*tch and you're a freak." and I replied "Yeah I know. /smile" Lmao. Slammed the door in my face and a few minutes later, I heard some knocking on my door, I was going to give another speech until I realized the other girls ditched her. AHAHA, fun.

Two nights ago, I dreamt that my family and I were just about to leave the house we're currently living in. My mom started her little dramatic sad moment and I pointed out to her that at least the new one is better and all, but for some odd reason, I remember seeing clothes hanging up so high as if it was at the Medina (market). Anyways, Sar was there and we hung out for the day. We took funny pictures in the picture booth including me wearing cosplaying a cat and her wearing a telukung (sp?) HAHAHA. Funny. She then went off somewhere else and I bumped into Benji. We started walking around and the place started turning to a.. convention or just a place with a lot of stalls. We came across one to see a bunch of boys playing the Xbox. We kind of looked inside the room and left, but I was stopped by two guys and they were trying to point out what this meant in Japanese. I hear someone calling Benji while I was being distracted. I assume it was the boss. Right after I finished talking with the two guys, I asked them where MY DARLING went off to. They had no clue and I searched inside their shop. I noticed a lot of pale, zombie-like people all over the place and it started to creep me out. I was scared to enter the store even deeper, so I went out and thought that he might have been.. killed. One of the boys from earlier started saying, "Something went wrong! Boss was suppose to drink only two people, but he ended up drinking more and he's thinking of making everyone here vampires!" Gasp. Everyone turned around to face the "boss" on top of the store and said in an deep villainy voice, "Come my children, let the games begin! Mwahaha!" One of the guys from earier looked kind of like "What is he on about?" for a second then suddenly his expression looked hypnotized and he looked directly at me or my neck. He walked towards me, hold my shoulders, and was in for the bite until... I WOKE UP THE END!

3 nights ago, I dreamt of going to the university in Ifrane, but with my friends/cousins from Brunei. It was so freaking huge. The area wasn't that bad either. We had nice restaurants and cafes near by, shopping malls and etc. It was interesting. A lot of fun. I remember running here and there haha.

The 4th night I dreamt about moving into an apartment. I think it was near by to Ifrane since I remember seeing snow. Fuuun.

YEAH OKAY I'M TIRED NIGHT :'D

Chapter 64: Moving, Travelling, and Downloading

2008-08-09T20:39:00.002+01:00

I woke up crying at around 4-5am. I recall being teased/bullied by my mom. Haha, these silly dreams. At least I got to sembahyang Subuh for the first time and got to eat from my new jar of Lumpish caviar. Oh baby.

We finally got a house. We'll be moving in two weeks time. Oh joy. I heard that it's quite close to where Mike lives. Haha. That shall be interesting.

Another thing, we will be going back to Brunei in the middle of September. We haven't raya'd in Brunei for 4 years. Geez. Haha. I know it's going to be awkward. I can feel it.

Anyways, I've been downloading and playing old games. Really brings back memories. PSP sucks with PSX games in them though. I was playing Klonoa and I finally reached Vision 7-1, but the only problem was that I was floating on nothing! I couldn't even jump on the visible platform; kept making me fall into a bottomless pit. Of course, that could be easily fixed by restarting, but.. gurrr I was about to fight the (final) boss and it froze. There was no save point anywhere. Freaking ashrlrasrjeaja.

I wish I could complete my animation soon. The more I think about the animation, the more ridiculous it seems to be, but no matter. It's all in good practice. I have to prove myself I can do better than cheap-jubur work.

OH YEAH I FOUND MY OLD CAMERA.

This was my 2nd instant camera. My first one was a Polaroid? Yeaaah. I wonder if they still sell the films in stores? Hah, I bet not.

ANYWAYS GOTTA GO DINNERRR BYEEE.

Chapter 63: Through the Ages

2008-08-08T18:57:00.005+01:00

Today my sisters and I were packing our albums.

You know what that means right? ... No? Well, it means that I'll be posting up some pictures. Sorry for the bad quality, all of these pictures are scanned.

Oh, snap. I can't directly post pictures from Blogger Buddy. /sadface

Anyways, here we go:

Mmm, I like me some circus.

Who's cooler? The one with the sunglasses or the moustache?

Uhh, "A"? /wegotmarreidreference

Mmm, must be dreaming of caviar.

Gasp! Why is Kaka holding my Gameboy?!

Yummy, yum, yum, yum.

Gasp, a stalker took this picture?

I miss Hyde Park. /sadface

Watching Ewan playing the GameCube. Good times. I miss playing Phantasy Star Online with them.

Lmao, I look retarded here.

Before Zee turned into a real internet addict.

I remember my team got 2nd for that. Aha. Ah well.

Left to Right (From Top to bottom): Dillah, Jibs, Zee, Fiz, Hafiz, Fakhrul, and oh crap I forgot those other two guys names! Damn it! I recall my eyelashes were so heavy that day. Haha.

THAT'S ALL AND NOW I'M GOING TO PLAY THEME HOSPITAL WOO.

Chapter 62: Testing?

2008-08-07T18:20:00.001+01:00

Woohoo. If this entry works, this is totally kickass.

I'm using this Vista Sidebar gadget thing called Blogger Buddy and I can directly post an entry without having to wait for the Blogger page to load up.

Hah, this chapter is my (favourite) number too.

I miss Benji. /Sadface

Chapter 61: On A Stick?

2008-08-06T19:41:00.004+01:00

For some odd reason, I started recalling these small stalls in front of my primary school in Vietnam.

They were these really cute figure-like shaped into dragons, dogs, girls, boys, and so which are placed on a stick. I forgot whether or not they were edible, but I think they were since they made them on the spot? I think it was either candy or just something to make little children buy them. I remember students with their parents always standing in line to get them, including my sisters and I. Probably.

Something like this:

Except that it is a bit transparent and not suppose to go up its butt.

Anyways, I'm trying to remember what they were called. Eeeh, if any of you ever heard of it and know what they are, please tell me. Haha.

Chapter 60: Nominated Kreativ Blogger?

2008-08-05T23:31:00.004+01:00

Lookie here, Dee nominated me!

Hmm, Kreativ Blogger. Why do I feel that it doesn't suit me since my blog including the layout isn't really creative? Lmao. I don't really care pulang if I get nominated, it's just tiring now since I got to put the logo on my blog. POURQUOI, DEE?! WHY MUST YOU TORTURE ME SO?! Anyways, thanks Dee! Ehe.

Here are the rules:

* You get to put this logo on your blog if I nominate you.
* Link the person you got this award from.
* Nominate SIX blogs.
* Put up the links to the blogs.
* Leave a message for the nominees.

Sigh, if I must. Here are the nominees in no particular order:

1. Dee
Haha, I can't help it. Whenever I read your blog, I feel somewhat stupid. Lmao. I mean by the way you express yourself with such interesting topics at times, I wish I could be like that too. Cough, now you got to put an extra logo on your blog. SOON, THIS LOGO WILL TOTALLY BLANKET YOUR BLOG NYAHAHA!

2. Wafiy
I just adore most of the pictures you post up. You kind of got me motivated to post more pictures on my blog, to be honest. Haha.

3. Fakhrul
It's out of habit, but you rarely update these days too. Haha. I feel intimidated by your vocabulary. /sadface

4. Kaka Azi
AZI-KUN. Haha wth. She supplies me with good dramas to watch, so I must! /grins

5. Cake
BECAUSE YOU ARE MY CAKEEEE.

6. Azzah
It's fun to read your blog. I like the layout too. Haha.

What the hell? I just realized I'm closing in to 1,000 hits on this blog. I just find it strange since people rarely leave a comment on my tagboard. I feel sad sad.

Okay, let me summarize everything as of late.

- I miss Benji. Lots.
- Still trying to find a house.
- There is a possibility of me studying in Brunei.
- I bought a cute hat!
- Some Arabic dude kept calling my phone earlier. After telling him I don't understand him, he keeps on calling again. Loser.
- Still missing Benji.
- Need to change this template. Honestly. So hard to find one which isn't hard to read and wideee.
- Been in the mood to sew things again!
- I still can't find my bag of fabricssss. I'm sad.
- I want to cosplay for some reason.

KTHNXBAI.

Chapter 59: Happy Three Months

2008-07-29T23:06:00.012+01:00

YES. HAPPY THREE MONTHS TO US. Lovelovelove?

Uhmmm, I'm just going to spam with pictures I took last week and a few days ago, so here!

Anddd that's all folks!

Chapter 58: Geez

2008-07-21T01:43:00.006+01:00

I'm such a lazybum. Yes, I am.

Trying to find a nice layout for this site, but if not, I'll just use one of the default templates. I'm also trying to work out if I can get a decent website so I can put all my stuff there. Wooo.

AND GAHHH. I found the video which I modelled in during the Asian Charity Festival ASDAJFJWJK.

God, and the guy filmed me doing some mistakes too. Gurrrr.

AND SOME MORE PICTURES OF IT TOO.

Man, I'm chubby.

On a side note, I'm working on an animation. This will be my first animation short. I'm trying to complete it within one week, if possible. Uhm, I'm not spoiling you with anything so HAH. You'll just have to wait until I finish it. NYAHAHA.

Oh, and all the cats are going to be taken away tomorrow. Well, they took like, 85% of the cats we had two days ago, but coming back tomorrow. Dun dun dunn. I think the only cats staying are probably Uncle Blacky and Titi, and probably Lilo if we can't find her kittens. Sigh, ah well.

PS: Curious? You can see people getting them on Youtube though. /sadface

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Chapter 57: Hidden Memories

2008-07-14T22:59:00.004+01:00

Bonjour, mon amis. I decided to actually start packing my things; mainly books for today. Well, I did pack some old video tapes, but that's not the point. Hehe. I came across a lot of things through my stacks of books and papers. It brought a lot of memories back.

I used to remember how I enjoyed studying French a lot with my classmates since we were all the same level. Coming here made me feel.. "powerless" haha. Here's an introductory I did those days.
That even got put up on the class. Eeee, I really like that picture a lot too; mostly because of the sunglasses. Ehehe. Zee with long un-dyed black hair! Oh my.

I also found a piece of paper in which Sar wrote a parody of Eminem's song, uh.. "Guess Who's Back?" I think. Hehe, Good times!

There are some inside jokes in there you probably won't get, but yeaaah. Cough cough.

Oh! I even found this "Memory Book" which my friends from KGS wrote in my 2nd year there. I didn't get to scan them because I got lazy, but they were all sweet words. I did get to scan my mom writing in THAT book. Sheesh, I always catch her leaving notes in my diaries, biodata, notebooks, and etc. but it's really nice if you think about it. Silly mom!

Lmao, I love the drawing.

Of course, I got lazy with packing, so I did some more search on animation. I've got to say, I really appreciate Holywood Animation Archive. I'm glad I got to bookmark it. It's quite helpful. What I don't really like in the tips they give on the Animation Crash Course is that you've got to copy exactly how it's done on the pages they show you, but I guess it's just showing you how it's done so meh.

I've got wayyy more drawings than this, but they al look retarded so deal with it. /grins

Andddd to end the night, here is my pretty Benji!

Ehehe~ /grin <3

Chapter 56: University Melts My Braincells

2008-07-09T02:27:00.004+01:00

My head hurts. Wooo.

I've been trying to search for really good animation universities out there in London. I'm having a hard time since most of them require a Foundation of Art & Design. Ughh. Even though some of those universities offer them, I just.. don't know. The ones I found that are pretty decent (when I look at the students work) are Kingston University and Limkokwing University.

Mom says I should write an email to the universities about my qualifications and whether or not they'll accept me, but.. I'm just not sure. Dad suggested I should return to Brunei to take my O'levels again including Art, but then I'd have to take all the subjects again... won't I? Ughhh. Headache, headache.

Moreover, perhaps this week the director of my current college is going to let me sit for my final two assignments. Sigh, I never realized how low the American High School Diploma is. It's like, an equivalent to five credits for the GCSE O' levels. How pathetic.

Yes, they even have the latter in London. Anyways, some of them even require a demo reel. Damn, all of the animations I did were unfinished and/or deleted. Why would I delete it, you say? Well, they're crap. Freaking ugly. That's why I don't post them up. The ones I post up are the 'lazy' crap. Eeeeh.

You also know what? I don't even understand the whole system with the university. Like, I understand what undergraduates and postgraduates are, but what the hell are the sub-courses they're giving us? How do YOU guys know what they stand for? For instance, BA (Hons) = Bachelor? MA = Masters? Meeeeh?

I must look really stupid, don't I? Ahaha, I must've killed a seal every time I blurted out silly things. Eeee, poor seals.

Just wanted to let things out. I'm so dizzy with everything. Ditzee. Lmao.

Chapter 55: Word Of The Day: Kaling

2008-07-07T14:57:00.002+01:00

I've got a question to you Bruneians. I've always wondered, is the word "kaling" a racist word?

I grew up with Bruneian people who used the word "kaling" in a joking way as to refer to Indians. So I've always thought it was okay to use it, just not in front of them. You know, kind of like how you wouldn't just randomly say to an American or British person, "Hey, you're a white kid right? That's pretty awesome! I always see your kind of people on televesion. Woooooo~" But, I digress. (Ehehe, I've always wanted to try use that word, lmao.)

One day during lunch time (when I was studying in London), I was writing random words on the white board and one of my friends was like, "Hey! That's a racist word, Naz!" I was kind of taken back and then decided not to use it since it was taken into an offensive word.

I think a few days later, I was walking on the streets of Oxford Street with my mom during the night and she spotted a few guys and said "Eh, macam kalinggg." But then she quickly said, " Oh wait- I was being racist," before I got to say anything.

A few weeks ago, my dad mentioned something about kaling, and then I said, "Gasp! That's racist, Daaad." He replied, "No lah! It's not a racist word. It's just like Iban. Iban is, well, Iban! Or like orang putih. It's the same case for Kaling. It's just the Malay term."

So, tell me people. Is kaling just another way to call Indians? Just the same as calling Asians, Africans, Americans, (Woo, alliteration) etc.? Or is it a racist word?

If so, wow. I never realized how racist Bruneians were then. Ahaha. /sadface

Chapter 54: Stop It.

2008-07-07T10:34:00.003+01:00

Just freaking stop screwing with us.

We were packing out things happily to return to home sweet home, to look forward to things that will have in store for us over there, to start a new life again, but no.

You made us stay another bloody year here in Morocco.

We thought the one year extending was okay for the first time, but again? What the hell is wrong with you people?

You really think we like Morocco? Do you really think it's okay to leave us here because we're just another family? Sure, the family quality time is there, but what about our bloody future, god damn it?! You're just going to dumb us out here. I'm so tired of life as it is over here. Why can't you just send us to another country where we don't have to rot?

I'm really sick of you guys. Why do you keep on doing this to us? Why?

Sorry for my language, but FUCK YOU. You guys really piss me off. I hate you guys. I truly do.

Sigh, so we took another route. It's going to be a surprise to the people here, so I hope the family and I don't tell a soul to anyone about this. Heh.

Bye.

Chapter 53: Fantasia and The Violinist

2008-07-01T13:33:00.004+01:00

28th of June, 2008:

After all these years, we finally got to watch the Fantasia here. We just had to go on a day which was bloody hot though.

What is Fantasia you ask? Well, I guess it's sort of like a competition in which there men are equipped with guns while riding their horses.

Later on we got fed up of sitting in the heat, so Zaza, Fabien, and Flurrey went horse-riding for a bit.

29th of June, 2008:

This was the day Reenah had to perform with her violin in front of an audience. It really is a shame her teacher made her stand at the corner. So unfair.

Before I go, isn't this awesome?

I want to make that too! ...Yes, I'm jobless and search for DIY crafty stuff to do. Haha.

Well, that's it folks!
Laters~